I had some serious mommy issue dreams when I was pregnant. As in,
woke-up-crying-I-don’t-care-if-it-wasn’t-real-it-felt-real-and-you-can’t-
change-my-mind-I-will-never-be-the-same-my-mom-and-everybody-
else-hates-me-dreams.

Phew.

It’s true, I haven’t forgotten them. I’ve also had a couple about my sister. Dreams that seem so real that they screw up your day. You know you’re messed up and confused about something, it’s just that something happened in a dream. (I say this because I’ve had dreams about Cody ticking me off and amazingly I wake up ticked off at him even though I have no legitimate reason.)

This brings me to 6:12 am (4:12 am MST), my sister in law called doing that whole snotty messy squeaky cry. (First of all I thought it was my sister and her dog had passed away, then I thought something had happened to my dad, oh how the human mind is so quick to freak out.) She had a bad dream about me and had called to check up on me. Awww.

She was apologizing for calling so early. (side note: Cody’s alarm goes off at 6:00 am which means my internal to-do list also goes off at six and I am up and overanalyzing things by 6:07 am.) But I felt all sorts of special that she cared enough to call and check on me.

You know you really love someone when you can call them at horrible hours of the night hiccuping and snotting into the phone because you had a bad dream and need to talk.

In her dream she was with Cody when he found out that I had *ahem* done away with myself. (GAH!) I can imagine that being a bit frightening. She kept asking if I was okay.

I am amazing.

Aside from some pesky zits and the misery that is the Midwest in March, I am just ducky. A lot has changed in the last few weeks, and it has all been for the better. So no more worrying about me, because the only funny business going down around here is me eating an entire tub of Trader Joe’s mini peanut butter cups in one sitting. (WHAT? Carrots, I mean baby carrots, lots of them.)

I love you dear sweet over achiever sister in law, call me anytime.

And you, any dreams you need to talk through? I may not be so hip to all of you calling at 6 am but you can leave a comment anytime. It’s very therapeutic, trust me.

Comments

  1. Aw, that was sweet of her. I’ve had very real, scary dreams before.
    Now my son was up until 11pm and then again from 3am to 6am scared about a scooby doo movie he saw yesterday at his friend’s house…

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  2. What an awesome sis in law. My sister and mom and I do that to each other a lot, my ex sister in law never did. I used to wake up LIVID with my ex, I think it was carry over? My latest weirdo why-would-I-dream-that dream was roll up keyboards (on SALE for $2.94 on woot.com)every stinking time I dozed off last night…roll up keyboards…$2.94!!!

  3. my husband loves the oh-so-real dreams, I dread them, for reasons you listed. All my oh-so-real dreams are oh-so-scary, never good. So glad you’re feeling better. Here’s to a good spring, if that ever comes!

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  4. I can’t stand the real dreams. They leave me a mess for a day or so, until I get a grip. My last big one was that my husband left me, moved into another house, and I had to take my kids (but we only had 2, not 4) to stay with him. Too vivid for me.
    Happy Day Casey!

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  5. Man, I have had some of those oh so scary dreams. The most resent was not so realistic but very scary. I dreamed that I was in a war zone with bombs and missiles going off every where!! I woke up shaking and covered in sweat. Any ways, on a good note it’s snowing here in Missouri and we have already gotten 8 inches!!! I love the snow but I dread driving in it. Have a great day!

  6. I always have dreams about seeing old boyfriends and then I can’t remember if I’m married or not and if it’d be okay to maybe, you know, make out or something :)

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  7. I hate those dreams. The latest one I had was that my seven year old had done something wrong, and she was on death row. At seven. And I had to talk her through execution day. What the HELL is that about? I cried for hours after I woke up.

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  8. “…overanalyzing things at 6:07″ Nice to see I’m not the only one. ha!
    Sometimes I do it in the middle of the night and can’t get back to sleep.
    That’s always a treat.
    I was just thinking the other day how I haven’t had any dreams for awhile – that I can remember. I’m like you in that all my vivid, stay with me all day dreams are usually scary, cause feelings of insecurity, or make me mad.
    Just once, I’d like to have a breathtakingly beautiful dream about waking up in a serene meadow with the birds chirping in the distance and Matt Damon lovingly gazing at me. I don’t know that I’d want to wake up from that one, though… Hmmm. Off to nap!!

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  9. Oh boy…you asked, so here it is…I spent yesterday feeling completely violated and icky after I had a disgusting sex-dream: An Ex I never wanted to date told me that he had put Ecstasy in every beer he ever bought me to “put me more in the mood” so I would sleep with him. Ewww ewww ewww.
    Where does this crap come from?

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  10. I have crazy weird dreams. Either my husband is ignoring me or people are trying to marry me off to someone else. So weird! Mine can be very vivid and I get confused if something really happened of if it was just a dream, like conversations with people.

  11. I’ve woken up crying and not sure why due to some dream or another. Right now, I find my TV viewing is interfering in my dreams. I’ve been watching DVD’s of the British show Spooks (MI-5 here in America) and the past few nights I’ve been an agent for the British Secret Service. However, considering who my fellow spies are, this is not necessarily a bad thing:)

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  12. Wow. I’ve not actually called anyone at an unnaturally early hour because of a dream…but I’ve had intense dreams like that for sure!! Amazing that she called you, though!!

    And I’m so glad you’re doing so well!! Looking forward to seeing you in person!

    P.S. WTH happened to that BEAUTIFUL weather we had on Sunday?!?! What’s this freezing rain crap?! SERIOUSLY?!?!

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  13. oh how i HATE those dreams. with. a. passion.

    i have them ALL the time. so. not. cool.

    if i had a dream like that about you i’d have to call too. of course, that would require having your phone number…so i guess i’ll just stick to comments and emails!

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  14. I’m glad you are feeling better. Yay!

    Peanut butter cups are a veggie, right?

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  15. What is it with the weird dreams lately. We’ve all been having them. 2 nights ago I dreamed that my husbands best friend from junior high had died. I was at the “mourning” afterwards and asked to talk, but all I could do was cry buckets of tears. I’m going to see him and his wife this weekend so I’m sure that’s what brought it on, but died?!!! Yikes!

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  16. Okay, in my defense, I wasn’t snotting!

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  17. i’m not sure what this means about his subconscious fears, but my long-distance bf will wake up next to me during visits, then grab me because he’s just dreamed that i broke up with him. in a really mean way. and then i feel guilty… about what i did to him in HIS DREAMS! unfair. this only happens when we’re physically together, apparently…

    also, i’ve had recurring dreams of large groups of people watching me shower. very strange.

  18. My poor hubbie has had to deal with the wrath resulting from dreams that were not his fault, but at the time it really did feel like he sat their playing video games while I made Thanksgiving dinner for 50.

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  19. A few years ago I had a dream where my dad was killed by the snipers that were on a rampage. I woke up crying so hard I couldn’t breath for a few seconds. It took my husband telling me that it was just a dream a few dozen times before I could calm down again.
    I have also had dreams where my husband did something that made me mad and ended up being mad at him that day. It was just hard to shake it off. Dreams can seem so real and sometimes are (mine have been right before – it is a little scary).

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  20. Two things:

    1) I’m thrilled you’re doing so well.

    2) I once had a dream I pooped my pants. The whole next day I was at work absolutely petrified that I was going to suddenly poop my pants for no reason. It was really freaky.

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  21. i used to dream that my dead ex (yes, really) had come back from the great beyond and was going to steal my baby girl away.

    i always had to remind my cold-sweating self a few zillion times that the evil one was really truly totally still dead, and no threat to me and mine.

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  22. I’ll have dreams for weeks at a time in which it’s life as usual, only my Dad will be present and interacting with my family. Then I wake and realize it was a dream as my Dad passed away in 1999.
    Those are the hardest ones to deal with.

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  23. I’ve had those dreams and still do. Sometimes I even have reoccuring ‘real’ dreams. I couldn’t tell you how many times I’ve *67′d the closest people in my life during wee hours just to hear them say, “hello” and then I hang up. I never even considered actually having a conversation to explain. EeeK! Sorry dad!!

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  24. I’m so glad you are doing well.

    I wake up pissed at my husband all the time. Even when I realize it was just a dream, it sometimes takes hours to get over whatever he did in my dream.

  25. My dreams have ruined more days then I can count. They have also made them wonderful.
    Last week Donald Trump was furious with me because Stevie Wonder gave me a Grammy and not him.
    That was a good day.

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  26. I hate those dreams. I’ve woken up being royally pissed at my husband *knowing* it was a dream and that I really had no right to be angry. Those times are kinda funny. He’s always so confused. lol

    I hate them because I had a dream my best friend was trying to tell me something and he was so alive and so real to me that I couldn’t get past that to listen to what he had to say.

    I guess I should mention that my best friend died in a car accident.

    It sucked and I will never forget that dream.

    I’m glad to hear things are going better for you and that you are ok.

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  27. I’m glad to hear that you are amazing. And what a nice sister you have. My sister’s called me after having dreams like that, too. In fact, she’s had vivid dreams about my death (each dream brings me a different type of demise) on several occasions in her life.

    I’m not all hooked up in dreams so mine rarely ever make sense. In a lot of mine, my ability to talk is paralyzed. I wonder what that says about me.

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  28. Yeah, my latest dream was not a scary one though. I ended up in bed with an old friend of mine who is now married and just had his first child and the…er… “you know what” was very good even though I’ve never been attracted to him in that way.

    *shrug*

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  29. You mean I am not the only one over anaylzing at 6 am? Bless your heart for coming clean.

  30. There is very little brain function for me at 6:00am… even if I am awake. I over analyze life during the day–sometimes causing me to remain awake much later than I like– but at 6:00am life is very fuzzy.

    I debate whether or not to tell you what a weird dream I had last night…. Please don’t shun me for this weird admission.

    I was in a Nicaraguan jungle running from the Sandinista. I have no idea how that got into my head but I distinctly remember it upon waking this morning. I was scared for my life!

  31. Mmmmm… peanut butter cups…

    I was pregnant with our first when I dreamt that my husband dumped me! I’ve never felt so REJECTED and it was only a dream! I still remember the mind-numbing, gut-heaving anguish from that one.

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  32. Ooh, I hate those dreams! Those and the ones where I do unspeakable things (like cheat on the husband) and I feel the need to apologize to the person I wronged. Even though it didn’t really happen, I end up feeling guilty for the rest of the day. Stupid, right?

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  33. I totally woulda done the same thing.

    FYI, one night, I dreamed my Pappy died, and I was so freaked out I wouldn’t answer the phone all the next day, because I didn’t want not know that he had died (like that would actually un-dead him). And you know what? I answered the phone at suppertime and it was my mom telling me he had died in his sleep the night before, in Florida, after spending the evening making jam.

    Never done that before. Or since. Creepy.

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  34. I have those crazy, realistic dreams all the time. I’m prone to waking my husband in the middle of the night and yelling at him for “what he did”. Thankfully he’s very good natured and comforts me rather than being pissy. Now if he woke me up, It’d be another story! ;)

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  35. When I was pregnant I had a dream that I woke up to go to the bathroom and my underwear was blood red- as though I was going through a miscarriage. i ran to my husband (in dream) and woke him up to take me to the hospital. I had never been more scared. I awoke from this dream, thinking it was real and started crying- only to realize that it was just that- a dream. It was so vivid. I will never forget it!

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  36. Just stopped by for the first time. Love your blog and wanted to say hi.

  37. Okay, Casey, this post is weird (to me) because I woke up this morning at 6 am (like two hours earlier than usual); I’d had a horrible nightmare.

    I rarely have nightmares; I am usually in control of my dreams…I know I am dreaming and chose how things will go.

    Not today; like your SIL, I woke up freaked out. Spooky. The other odd thing about my dream was that it was like I was watching a movie.

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  38. Mmm… mini peanut butter cups! I just felt my ass get bigger! LOL! So glad to hear things are evening out for ya and you’re doing better hun! Thinking about ya!

    Oh, and, sooo have had those dreams. Lots.

  39. I had the crazy preggo dreams, too! They were so real, I called my friends and family at all hours, too. I even convinced a friend not to fly on a plane. Yep, it was that vivid.

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  40. I have dreams that my mother smokes. Now, just what the heck am I supposed to get out of THAT??

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  41. Yep. did that to my mom once. I was in UT, she was in AZ. Scared the poo outa her. Sorry mom!