moosh in indy.

February 11, 2009

Here goes nothing.

Up to this point I have not had anyone get medically involved in my fertility issues outside my yearly spread ‘em, scrape ‘em, squeeze ‘em. I didn’t have insurance nor was I completely sure that eight babies during law school was the best idea (wait, you mean not everyone that goes through fertility treatment gets eight babies? Bummer.)

This past Monday after a Blissful weekend I finally went in to see a doctor. I was in a jovial mood and joked about how I’d make him famous if he could get a litter into my uterus. We joked back and forth about the baby making process and about the appearance of stray body hair (Did I ever mention that I had PCOS? In addition to the occasional RUPTURE of a cyst on my ovary I had dark thick whiskers that grew from every crevice? I didn’t? Wonder why…)

When it came time for the actual exam, results and the real questions his face turned grim. I could tell he didn’t want to have to tell me what he found and what would have to be done about it.

I’m not ready to go into those details yet. With my upcoming travels through February and March it delays what needs to be done due to timing. And focusing on what I’m going to have to go through will only cause me more heartache.

But let’s just say the answer is not as easy as a prescription for Clomid accompanied by a few months of hot flashes, scheduled sex and hormonal surges of crazy.

I’m going into this hoping to find the humor in it, for some reason I though being able to get pregnant would be natural. Like hunger.

You get hungry, you eat a cheeseburger.

You want to have a baby, you make out.

I’ve had so many sweet people email me thanking me for helping them through their own fertility issues. Some send pictures of their miracle babies, others send me photos of the little kids they were blessed to have through adoption.

I know there’s still some of you out there who can’t get babies where you want or need them to be. I can’t give up and lie to you about how much I’m hurting.

Because I am.

And I cannot be ignorant to all the kindness my readers have shown me. You don’t need to read this stuff, no one makes you. The world won’t stop if you don’t read my blog. But you do. And I’m grateful for that. Grateful that you take the time to send me hugs and kisses and chocolate.

@mooshinindy if it’s hell you have to go through then we will all go with you holding your hand. -@Adrienne

Thank you. All you faceless people and people whom I’ve had the honor of meeting. Thank you for letting me throw my little snit fit pity party.

Business as usual tomorrow? I’ll be discussing prenatal vitamins. If we can put a man on the moon and Apple can make the iPhone, why the hell can’t we make a prenatal vitamin smaller than the state of Rhode Island?

P.S. I’m leaving comments open as long AS NO ONE SAYS “I’M SORRY.”If you can’t think of anything to say besides “I’m sorry” then tell me your favorite kind of sandwich.

P.P.S. Oh, also, if I depressed you enough and you are an emotional eater HAVE I GOT THE GIVEAWAY FOR YOU! Martinis and Chocolate over at my review blog, you’re welcome.

Comments off.

Well in lieu of saying “I’m sorry” I will just totally agree with you about the prenatal vitamins, those effin things suck.

In all seriousness though know you aren’t alone in your struggles and that there is a miracle at the end of your rainbow – I can just feel it. There clearly NEEDS to be more Moosh cuteness running around

You are quite amazing to talk as candidly as you do in your blog. I envy you for that.

I hope you enjoy your travels to NYC and that you get to visit Auntie Nettie. If you do, hug her for me. I miss her terribly.

Kristins last blog post..WTF? Wednesday

I take a multivitamin, it comes in a tiny little pill. But those pre-natal ones, same junk different colour. No, they have to be horse pills. There’s something seriously wrong with that one.

Dude. That sucks.

(That’s not the same as I’m sorry, right?!)

I always forget to take my vitamin. I’ll probably die soon.

You inspire me, by the way.

ashley.stars last blog post..Have Passport. Will Travel.

I too am amazed at the ability to you have for being so open and candid on your blog. Sometimes having the ability to open up like that helps heal the soul…

Eat lots of chocolate. You deserve it.

Mels last blog post..First day of job. . . already put in my two week notice!

I feel the pain of what you are going through as I have walked a path that required me to have in vitro to become pregnant with no assurances that it would work. I know the feeling of wanting it so badly and being dissapointed. I did become pregnant with invitro and know how frustrating it all can be. Hang in there!

amys last blog post..Passionate about…

Fertility issues suck and I love a good pastrami with swiss.

Michelle Smiless last blog post..Blissful bullets

I won’t say I’m sorry, I’ll just say “I feel for ya”. Cuz I do – I’m there witchu.

Colleen – Mommy Always Winss last blog post..When worlds collide

My favorite sandwich is one with lots of cheese.

Also: Prenatal vitamins SUCK.

Jens last blog post..how is it Friday already? SRSLY.

prenatal vitamins…i just took two flintstone chewables instead. f…the prenatals!! dr said it was fine!!

i’m not saying i’m sorry for ya.
but…
xoxo

I’m NOT sorry, because I *know* you’ll get through this situation with the same grace and strength with which you handle, well, everything.

And I apologize in advance for the numerous bear hugs I will be giving you next week. . xo

metalias last blog post..Fake Spring Week: I’m not making it up.

What Cher movie was that where the daughter made out with the guy and then thought she was going to be pregnant? Mermaids, I think.

Anyway…here’s to hoping that whatever course you’ve got to take will produce the results you’re hoping for. I’ll keep everything crossed for you.

AMomTwoBoyss last blog post..A Picture is Worth…Stock in Baby Wipes?

Sometimes I feel better knowing what I’m facing and sometimes it blows chunks and I want to go into a hole.

You help people, babe. Even those of us who don’t have fertility issues but have loss. Or emptiness. Or if they need the courage to cop to depression.

You help people. Whether you mean to or not. And that is awesome. (Especially for me, since I occasionally get to hang with you and have aforementioned whiskers ripped out of crevices by hot waxers n’ stuff.)

P.S.
Besides talking about those damn vitamins being the size of Alaska, if you could also ask the vitamin gods why the hell they can’t COAT A VITAMIN or put it in a capsule so it doesn’t taste so foul it is immediately hurled back up, I’d be grateful. kthnxsbai!

Loralees last blog post..Sideblog: I kinda feel like a douchebag.

Well honey, dammit it should be natural, like eating. But I hope you are saying that there are sucktastic and yet promising things that can be done. I hope so. You deserve it. We’ll be here of course!

Amy2 boyss last blog post..Blissdom 09: Nashville Shopping

I can not swallow a vitamin (or anything that huge-so I take the gummie vitamins)

would comment more but I just spilled my precious coffee…damn!

Domestic Extraordinaires last blog post..Can’t talk now….

I had PCOS too and the chest hair was MAD SEXY.

Amandas last blog post..EDITED: Cashew Chicken Recipe

Beautiful and sad and sweet and totally lovely.

Horse pills make me gag.

And grilled cheese with spicy mustard is the very, very best.

Casey –
Post like this one are exactly the reason I love blogging. While I enjoy to read a post and laugh, I love even more when I can really hear the soul of the author in her writing.

While my heart breaks for you, (really it does), I’m so very thankful that you let us in as readers, as friends.

Hopefully someday in the not so distant future we will be able to look back at this post and reflect at how far you’ve come…as a wife, mother and as a woman.

You know I love you.

DesignHER Mommas last blog post..Checking off the bucket list in Nashville

I just want you to know that even if you don’t ever give birth to octuplets, I will still like you.

As for the sandwich, gouda and roasted red pepper, please, cause I’m fancy like that.

Burgh Babys last blog post..Subliminal Messages? Where?

Another sufferer from PCOS, how about that belly hair? Yum.

My dr gave me a prescription for folic acid, and then told me to just take a Flintstone’s vitamin. Oh I loved that advice. I would always take 3 and then feel guilty … but they’re so good!

The only thing worse than those stupid horse-pill prenatals is that I usually have to combine them with the even bigger calcium supplements. Seriously, folks! Why do you give something that makes you gag to people that are already throwing everything up?

We love you, Casey. You brighten our day. My best friend is going through the same thing, right now, right down to the PCOS. Reading your thoughts helps me understand hers. Thank you for your honesty.

Oh, and I like nearly any sandwich that involves bacon.

Fave sandwich? Toast, miracle whip, tomatoes, cheese, onions. DELISH!

XXOXOXOXOXOXXOX

Skyes last blog post..A good day.

Thanks for continuing to share your struggles. I was just diagnosed with PCOS after thinking that I’m healthy and take care of myself, everything will be ok. Oh well. Such is life. It’s at least nice to share the struggle with others.

I say wallow for a little bit then get some energy back to come at it full force.

Hi Casey,

Infertility does bite! Doesn’t it drive you crazy that some people can sneeze and get pregnant? Thank you so much for sharing with us.

I feel lucky to have the two kids that I do have, for both it was difficult to get pregnant. I would love a third but it just isn’t happening! I had been told that I had PCOS also but I recently switched OB’s and the new OB changed my diagnosis to hyperinsulinemia. I make too much insulin which gets turned into testosterone. So I know what you mean about the hair! Long story short, I understand where you are coming from. Be sad, eat chocolate, we are all here for you. You are not alone!

a.mens last blog post..runaway for fudge…

Now I’m even more bummed I didn’t officially meet you at Blissdom. You seemed really cool of course, but I hadn’t come across your blog before so I didn’t even know what I was missing!
So, hi!
Thanks for sharing something so deep & personal (and a little familiar to me too), with a refreshing bit of humor mixed in.
I’ll be back to read more, that’s for sure!
And seriously, those vitamins are the worst!

Nicole aka Gidgets last blog post..Blissful Friends

I am not sorry. I am optomistic on your behalf… and what is that cliche about good things to those who wait or nothing good comes withtout struggle? They’re cliches because they’re right.

Domestic Goddess (In Training)s last blog post..Wednesday’s What the….

My favorite sandwich is a grilled cheese. Sometimes with ham or turkey.

ClassyFabSarahs last blog post..Thank God for Weekends…

Obviously when things DO work for you, they REALLY WORK, because look at the Moosh!

I vote for making prenatal vitamins in the form of chocolate milkshakes. Except sugar free and fat free. That’s not asking too much, is it?

Melissas last blog post..the first of many

I feel your pain. I HATE those horse pill prenatal vitamins too!

try taking some kids vitamins – better than nothing and they aren’t huge!

Kristins last blog post..Snow Day!

Two Things:

1) You know when guys see another guy get hit in the junk and they curl up with sympathy pain? When you said “spread ‘em, scrape ‘em, squeeze ‘em” I immediately shut my legs together — a gesture my girlfriends call the “venus fly-trap.”

2)Do you have a theme song? You need a theme song. And whenever you’re feeling particularly depressed, you have to imagine your readership following behind you. Half of us would be singing the song, the other half would just be shouting “Caaaaseeey, Caaaaasey.” Even though you don’t know what we all look like, you can just imagine us as beautiful and fabulous because, well, obvs.

Jenns last blog post..Too Late to Post-Date Some Entries, Huh?

That stinks but I bet it will turn out great for you.

We’ve been trying for more kidlets since the twins (now 6) were 2. So I understand a little. After (“naturally” conceived) twins you feel like Fertile Myrtle then find out your eggs are old. Is that ironic?

Alpaca Farmgirls last blog post..How Can You Eat at a Time Like This?

If anyone can deal with this with grace and humor it will be you.

Brees last blog post..Sassy Flirty Apron Swap

favorite sandwich — italian hoagie. what can I say, I am from Philly!

And for you, hang in there. and even though I am sorry to hear all this as I am new to your blog, I am looking forward to hearing where you go from here.

meanwhile, thanks for reminding me I have a prescription for prenatals to fill. all vitamins, but the ones prescribed during my pregnancy make me sick! it’s pretty annoying.

Courtney from Mommie Blogss last blog post..our little man…

I wish you all the best. I mean truly…how could anyone as awesome as you not deserve the best!

WMs last blog post..Things that should never be Tweeted

hugs and a turkey with cheese and Mayo sandwitch.

kj @ Where my boys at?s last blog post..Top 10 Reasons to Oppose the Stimulus

I can relate to your story. After years of infertility issues, I had my daughter when I was 35, only to be told at my first post-natal appointment that I needed a hysterectomy and wouldn’t be having any more. It didn’t fit into my Master Plan, if you know what I mean, but I’ve learned to accept it and be grateful for what I have been given. I hope things turn out well for you and if not, that you find some peace in the end result.

Andis last blog post..That figures.

I like reubens.

All pre-natal vitamins made me vomit. I finally had to take Centrum Silver, the geriatric vitamin. Apparently I had an iron intolerance. If you know of a pre-natal vitamin that does not make you vomit, I’m all ears!

HUGS and virtual chocolate being sent your way.

Jen L.s last blog post..With this ring…ugh.

Hang in there.

The Ultimate Turkey from Hopkins Eatery in Tallahassee.

I think this is one reason I haven’t sucked it up and gone to a doctor yet. I’m afraid to find out that it’s just not possible.

Reeses last blog post..Spreading the Virus

pretty much any sandwich from zingerman’s or the sonoma turkey sammie from quiznos.

I took flintstones vitamins during both my pregnancies on the suggestion of my dr. That or nothing, cuz the others made the sickness worse.

It should be easy and I wish it were for you. :/

Pgoodnesss last blog post..Bad massage or screwed up neck?

If you have to do injections, I’ll be here holding your hand ~ but don’t be surprised if I faint immediately afterward. Love ya & all that, but the sight of needles makes my insides all twichy and gooey.

Seriously, the Robin Williams’ style body hair can be indicitive of PCOS?? ‘Scuze me while I call my OB & ask why I was never told that about this …

Bellamommas last blog post..5 to 10 in just under 6 aka Motherhood Math

Ok, I am on my way to google because I have no idea what that hairy thing is that you are describing.
My favorite sandwich…meatball

midwest mommys last blog post..Seal it with a Kiss!

Turkey and Swiss from the Highlands Hill Deli.

Nicholes last blog post..Lemons to lemonade

Braeburn apple paninis with havarti or muenster cheese (depending on your country) and spicy brown mustard.

3of3 ran around the house this morning saying, “Thank you, Moosh!” Thought you’d like to know.

Mr Ladys last blog post..I Quit. Again.

I’m glad you went to the doctor and I hope those answers can lead to some solutions or at least peace of mind. You know I love ya, pal, and I will be thinking of you.

Barb @ getupandplays last blog post..Utes are #1 in our book

It’s so frustrating when our bodies can’t/won’t do what they are supposed to “naturally” do. It’s aggravating (which is just another word for frustrating, but whatever). And then, it’s not discussed, people don’t discuss the problems or the feelings or the let down they feel. I have a BF who’s been struggling with fertility for the past 4 or so years; she doesn’t talk about a lot, but we can see it; in her actions, in her eyes and through her soul (which only BFs can see, of course). I’m grateful to you, for your voice, for giving those thousands of women who won’t/can’t share their story a voice. You are incredible, my dear. And, again, we will all be here to hold your hand and read your soul.
Hugs & lots of love today

Sometimes I hate the way the world works. A person who can barely afford the kids she has is able to have IVF to have *more* while she’s living on government hand-outs (not knocking those who do, so no flaming. We used to be on them).
People who should not be having kids (drug addicts who won’t come off the drugs long enough to birth a child, etc) are having them.
Then those who desperately want a child, who would do most anything for them, aren’t able.

I hate the world.

*hugs*

Oh, and: Grilled Chicken Caesar Pita. Chic Fa Le (whatever it’s called) has the awesomest ones.

I’ve been in a similar place where you are. PCOS, body hair, infertility, and all. I will be following along on your journey, and I wish you the best!

Loras last blog post..Imagine If You Will

Ahhh…P,B,&J…

A good Italian sub. Warm with Italian dressing, not sauce. Blah. Here’s to you … and all the fun you’ll have at least trying to have a baby. Rowr.

I’ve got a mild PCOS thing, am an emotional eater, and totally awesome just like you. heh

Let’s get knocked up this year, k??

xoxo

VDogs last blog post..Love Is…In Your Bedroom

No advice. No sorrys.

Read my friend: http://xbox4nappyrash.com

Angie [A Whole Lot of Nothing]s last blog post..Worse Than Being Puked On

I’m new to your blog, but I’m not new to PCOS! I never tried to get pregnant, in part because of that, so I appreciate what’s ahead of you.

Mauras last blog post..Grace in Small Things, 13/365-ish

No PCOS, no diagnosis, no vagina, shockingly little body hair, and no shame.

Lots of trying and failing and swearing and repeating.

(Chicken, sweetcorn, and warm bacon on a thick brown loaf.)

Xbox4NappyRashs last blog post..Clear as mucky mind mud

I wish I could give you my uterus. I will hold your hand and be your shoulder and support to hell and back again, my friend of my heart.
All the love that I have is in those pearls and I pray they are as lucky as I was when you decided we’d be friends.

Even in this, there is humor. God is using you in amazing ways and has big plans for you.
SMOOCHES

We’re all blessed that you’re willing to share your journey with us.

Ugh, prenatals are NASTY. And gave horrendous heartburn, so I never took them, instead I stuffed my face with the cereals that had the highest levels of vitamins possible. GM, I heart you.

Favorite sandwich? Wow, that’s tough, I adore a good grilled panini with tomato, basil, mozzarella, and some olive oil. But these days tomatoes give me migraines, so I’m abstaining.
Growing up my sister’s favorite was nutella sandwiches. Can’t go wrong with bread and chocolate, right? Mmmm chocolate.

Jessica (from It’s my life…)s last blog post..Did you notice the new digs? Hun? Hun?

So if your ever in Toronto for some reason check out a place called The Montreal Deli… seriously the best beef dip on rye you will ever put in your mouth. OH and the dill pickle TO DIE FOR! Seriously it’s worth the airfare! Sometimes I fly home just for the sandwich, I just tell my MIL that it’s to visit.

so i came on over form GNO last night and saw you were from here in indy…which is kinda fun! then i came by today and read your post. so i had 9 years of infertility issues with hubs…only dealt with them for aobut 3, then adopted 2 kiddos…thought we were done, then god laughed and after a dnc for interuterine cyst removals and a little spring cleaning, viola, el prego with #4…which is now 12 months and the best little gift and surprise i’ve ever been given! hang in there. i don’t know what is in store for you, but i know that it’s gonna be a journey that won’t be quick and won’t be the straight road. prayers for you.

Peanut Butter and Jelly on white Wonder Bread fresh from the package. Nutritional crap but good for what ails ya!

I’ll make you a dozen.

Condo Bluess last blog post..How to Keep a Shower Curtain Rod from Falling

Do what you have to do and then we’ll spend the summer siting by the river throwing rocks as hard as we can because you’re angry, and then we’ll throw sticks and watch the anger float away.

And now I’m supposed to devulge my favorite sammich? Tuna on a baguette from au bon pain.

Must Be Motherhoods last blog post..I’m all at sea

You mention Clomid but not IVF…have you looked into that? My gf has PCOS and went into early menopause by age 20…with IVF she has six children with donor eggs and her husband’s sperm. Since you aren’t in menopause you could use your own eggs. Downside is that it is $pendy. And you never know…I was hospitalized twice in my twenties with ruptured ovarian cysts and am working on number five. Good luck.

Fave sandwhich: chicken parm panini.

Chicken Pesto on Wheat!

My god-daugther has PCOS too – she is only 21 now but she is aware that she may have to deal with issues like the ones you describe when she is old enough to want kids. She is amazing with my daughter and I so wish for her, as I do for you, that you get to experience motherhood! … in whichever way works for and resonates with you!

That sucks ass. I’ve been there, and I’m sandwich that you have to go there too. http://tinyurl.com/c78cpk.

xoxoxo my friend.

Best sandwich ever: Butter one side of a piece of wheat bread, and place it, butter side down, in a hot pan (as if for grilled cheese). Put one slice of sharp cheddar cheese on top of the bread. Then put another slice of buttered bread next to that piece. Put a slice of cheddar cheese on top of that bread, too. Put bacon on top of the cheddar cheese. Then put sliced turkey on top of the bacon. Cook until both pieces of bread are toasted.

Meanwhile, slice lettuce, tomatoes, and avocado. When your bread is done, transfer it to a plate, top it with the lettuce, tomato, avocado, and ranch. If you don’t want a slippery sandwich, mash the avocado and ranch together and spread them on top of the cheese on the one slice of toasted bread before putting the veggies on.

And now you know why I’m fat.

Anyway, I hope your journey through infertility is as short as mine was. The day before my first infertility appointment with a new doctor, after two years of trying, I took a pregnancy test and it was positive. I told the doctor, “Wow, you’re good – you fixed whatever was wrong over the phone!!”

Amys last blog post..Stories Everywhere

That sux.
Damn.

Dugis last blog post..In honour of Valentines day

The world needs more souls like yours, so I’m betting things are gonna work out. And in the mean time I’m praying, old school style.

Regarding the eight babies, is anyone else totally feeling Holly Hunter in Raising Arizona? Where’s John Goodman when you need to steal a baby y’all?

Love ya lady!

Amy in OHios last blog post..Eating the Bliss

I currently have so many friends struggling with infertility… it sucks. My favorite sandwich is a big juicy burger (how original).
And the prenatals… yuck! Just thinking of them makes me gag a little…

punkinmamas last blog post..next

I love peanut butter and jelly, I know it’s quite juvenile of me, but I do, I love it.

I wish nothing but pure happiness to you and your new adventure. It is an adventure isn’t it? I hope that in the end, whatever you have to go through, it will all be worth every tear, every worry and every milestone!

staciesmadnesss last blog post..(Mostly) Wordless Wednesday

read the Schwarzbein Principle

see if the eating plan is doable for you. It’s how I got knocked up with the beautiful boy that turned 2 today

and for the record, I love a good hummus and cucumber sandwich with tomato and swiss on millet bread.

fidgets last blog post..Happy happy birthday baby son

My favorite sammich is the classic chick-fil-a chicken sammich. And I REALLY enjoyed meeting you this weekend, and I really look forward to reading about what amazing things God is going to do for you.

Jenny from Mommin’ It Up!s last blog post..What do you get when you mix 25 bloggers and one swanky southern restaurant?

Ahh, the infertility issue sucks a big one, as for PCOS didn’t you always want to be covered in hair like a man! I know its tops on my list.

I’m a big fan of sandwiches, but my all time favorite is grilled cheese, with anything.

Oh by the way Thanks saying what a lot of the rest of us feel.

I sure do love a good Cuban sandwich. But I’ll expand that to any sandwich that I don’t have to make and/or cut the crusts off.

Prenatal vitamins? Icky.

Sarahs last blog post..Heart & Soul… For Valentines Day

Today is the first day I’ve ever looked at your blog! I too have PCOS! (I have those black hairs in the very same crevices you speak of!!) I would love to know how your doctor is treating you…The best doctor in the world for treating PCOS is in New Albany, MS. (Yes, Mississippi)! He has helped so many of my friends! Are you taking metformin, progesterone, etc? Please email me (atrobin@olemiss.edu) I’d love to share my story with you or anyone else with the same fertility issues!

Angela Robinsons last blog post..Blocks

This is why I like you and why I’m not sorry for you.
The first time I met you, at Blissdom, you opened right up about your fertility struggles. And considering your blog has a healthy readership, I’m impressed that you are courageous and confident enough to be so transparent.
You aren’t stuck in the corner crying yourself to sleep every night (though I’m sure you have days like that). No, you are saying, “this is ****, and it ain’t fair, dammit,” but you don’t give up and you don’t throw a pity party.
I don’t know what is in store for you and your family, but I trust that whatever it is, you will make the best of it because that’s just what you do. You see a table, and you turn it into a dance floor! Party on.

Alis last blog post..Valentine Craft Aftermath

So whiskers you say?

I love my waxing lady because of you. You urged me to go. So yeah, no whiskers for me. However barren-osity city for me too.

You voice my fears and frustrations better than I can at times.

Gracias!

JachiCues last blog post..Drip Drop…

The comic stylings of Hal Roach:

Father Murphy was the priest in a little village just outside of Donegal. One day the damn above the town burst and the valley began to flood. As the nave of the church began to fill with water some of the townspeople floated by in a small boat.

“Father! We’ve room in the boat! Jump in and save yourself!”

“No no,” replied Father Murphy, “have no fear for me. The Good Lord will look after me.”

As the church flooded Father Murphy was forced to flee up to the balcony. Through one of the stained glass windows he could see another boat float by, with more of the townsfolk inside.

“Father! Get in the boat! You’ll surely die if you stay there!”

“Have no fear, my children. The Good Lord would never forsake me. I will be fine.”

The church flooded and Father Murphy was forced up into the belltower, clinging to the bell for dear life. And another boat drifted by, packed tight with townspeople.

“Father! It’s a tight squeeze, but we’ll make room for you! Get in the boat! There are no more boats in the village. If you stay here you’ll surely drown!”

“No no, I have put my faith in the Lord. He will care for and shelter me against this great disaster that has befallen our town.”

A final, surging tide of water submerged even the bell tower, and Father Murphy drowned.

He made his way through the queue before the Pearly Gates, and St. Peter overheard him mumbling to himself.

“I just can’t understand it. I can’t understand why the Good Lord would forsake me in my time of need.”

And Saint Peter chucked him gently under the chin, raising Father Murphy’s gaze up to meet his own.

“Well,” he said, “we did send three boats, you know.”

Backpacking Dads last blog post..Economics and Guilt

that should read “one day the DAM” above the town…

not the “damn”.

Damn.

Backpacking Dads last blog post..Economics and Guilt

I’m thankful for your transparency.

Not all of us are struggling through fertility issues, but I bet everyone has an empty place. Offering a ministry (of humor, of empathy, of companionship, of whatever) because of personal pain sucks, but it is still ministry.

Keep sharing it, sister.

If there was anyway I could let you use my uterus, I would.

Seriously. I’m done with mine and it’s in good working order. I mean, you know, if you hear of a way…

Miss Britts last blog post..With Bated Breath

I found out I have Celiac/gluten intolerance back in October and haven’t had bread since then. I haven’t found a GF bread that is worth even a tenth of its cost. So at this point I’d love a fabulous sandwich with veggies, some meat but mostly veggies. I had the most amazing veggie sandwich at the Denver airport last summer. Man I miss sandwiches.

It’s amazing the things you find out the older you get in life… like I knew my college roommate had PCOS before I knew my mom did. No wonder it took her 7 years to have me.
Now… me is thinking I should get to the doctor as well.

Kristas last blog post..An Imaginary Trip

You are amazing. Thank you for sharing this, for being honest, and for disallowing the “I’m sorry” comments. This will get easier.

Lots of sandwichy love,
xox

heidikinss last blog post..For the King of Hearts

Hugs.

And I’m eating the best caprese sandwich ever right now.

Just ’cause you asked.

Fear and Parenting is last blog post..Questions I Can’t Answer

Purported favorite sandwich: turkey/bacon/guacamole

Actual favorite sandwich: peanut butter/mayonnaise

Prenatal vitamin + morning sickness + getting said vitamin stuck in your throat = monumentally crappy morning

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I have PCOS too, I hate it. Yuck. Here’s to a good pair of tweezers…. yeah. I always think if I was stranded on a desert island, and I could bring one item, It would be TWEEZERS.

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I’ve accepted my lot in life. Couldn’t have children. Was blessed with two wonderful step children. As much as I love them, it’s not the same. Please don’t judge me on that comment. I love my step kids soooo much! But to go through a pregnancy, hold something that loves me absolutely unconditionally … sigh …

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seriously…..that sucks. really, really bad. prayers being sent your way.

I have to tell you I feel your pain with infertility and PCOS. I have been through surgeries and all in over the 7 years of trying. There have been many tears shed over negative tests and waves of depression over my bummed womanly parts.

BUT it can happen and it WILL happen.

After 7 years now, I just got pregnant(naturally without help, who knew?).

Dear Moosh in Indy we are all here rooting for you and I can not wait until it happens for you, because it will…

~Crooked Eyebrow

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I’m so glad you saw a doctor. I’ve been putting it off because I’m afraid of what she’ll say. I’m going next Tuesday though…we’ll see what happens.

A friend of mine sent me a book today that you may be interested in. It’s called “Empty Womb, Aching Heart” by Marlo Schalesky. My friend says it was so helpful and encouraging when she was experiencing some infertility issues. I haven’t read it yet, but it looks good. Praying for you (and your reproductive system!)!

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I have PCOS too! But the only weird things that go on with my body are the exploding cysts and the completely whacked out anovulatory periods.

The doctor says Clomid will probably work for me. Just got to focus on getting health insurance now. (Actually, it comes in 90 days with my brand new job).

Been there done that… Have you tried some good ole fashion intense stress and life instability to help with the conception?

Worked for me just after we made to cross country move from Arizona to Indiana, while we weren’t insured and right after we finally got engaged after 7 years…

Anyway, I don’t know that the doc found but all mine told me I wasn’t going to get pregnant (until physical things changed within me) but as soon as the stress and craziness kicked in I got fertile and got knocked up.

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Your phrase to describe a pelvic exam is the most perfect thing I have ever heard. “Spread ‘em, scrape ‘em, squeeze ‘em”…ha! Am I the only person who truly hates that experience? When they take my blood pressure I look and think, “I’m a heartbeat away from passing out. I WONDER WHY.”

Memo to Casey’s baby-making business, temporarily on hiatus: GET ON IT.

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The good news being – the grim faced doc has a plan. It sounds like it sucks. But it has to be better than no plan at all, right?

You’ll make it.

Please keep talking about it and being open about it. I can’t do the same, so I need to hear someone else’s voice.

Also, anyone had an HSG test and willing to share the details with me? I go in Friday.

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Tofurkey and swiss on sprouted wheat bread.

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mmm…favorite sandwich…phili from THE Philidelephian in Sandy, UT! Gotta go. Just don’t look at the grody area they cook in.

Thanks for sharing. really. you. are. brave.

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I admire your way…
keep up
you are an example..
thanks

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You are strong, and life is good, and I have confidence that your future holds more children. (((hugs)))

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Fertility issues suck. All those tests suck. We went through some stuff before having Zoe.

We’ve got none of your details out at this end… but… it sounds like you’re getting some answers… and even though they’re not what you wanted to hear… it sounds like there might be something to be done. I’ll be thinking positive thoughts for you.

Oh… and the sandwich… you just can’t beat a plain old grilled cheese!

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Um, it’s called a “King Sandwich” and it’s peanut butter, melted chocolate and banana slices on pound cake. And perhaps it’s dessert.

But seriously, I wish you didn’t have to go through something as frustrating and traumatic as this. Perhaps your journey can be helpful to others who might need a role model to get through the same type of thing.

Good luck. I hope you don’t need it.

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You’re amazing! Just wanted you to know.

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I’m determined that one day I’ll be able to say thank you to your face. Thank you for being so open, honest, and willing to talk.

I also have PCOS. It sucks… I hate that word, but nothing else describes how I feel about PCOS.

I have 17 darling first graders that greet me every morning with smiles on their faces despite their sometimes awful lives. They ask to come home with me, or to live at school with me. They are why I survive another day without my own little darlings waiting for me at home.

I pray for both of us to live through these trying times with smiles on our faces and true happiness in our hearts.

Good luck as you continue down your long road. I wish you the very best!

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duder, transvaginal ultrasound guided needle aspiration of follicles is TRULY not as bad as it sounds… i see it on a daily basis. i’m the one that searches through the fluid to find the eggs.

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Isn’t PCOS so very fun? Ah good times.

Thank you for bringing us along on your journey, we’re rooting for you!

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I like a good Monte Cristo but a grilled cheese on sourdough works too.

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Hey, your resident stalker here…..but I have a book for you……it was written by my first ever internet friend…from 10 flippin’ years ago…yes, we’ve been internet friends for 10 years and yet to meet IRL. (hahaha, I used those little letters)

Anyway, it is about secondary infertility and this woman totally rocks the house. Her name is Ninotchaka and she is this petite little Latin thing with 3 children now. But, her second one wasn’t easy to obtain…..you really should email her and get your hands on this handy dandy little book.

Let me know if you are interested, I’ll stalk her into sending you one…lmao…..

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crap, some friend I am, I spelled her name wrong, it’s Ninotchka

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I will never understand why life can be so unfair.

That being said, I personally love pizza.

Um, tie between grilled chicken and club (with ketchup to dip).

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You are awesome for putting this stuff out there.
And anything from Schlotzkys.

I love you, you wonderful fantastic woman you. I’ll drink along side you whilst you figure it all out.

Seriously, awesomeness. You. And wherever life takes you? You know we’re here. XOXO

As a survivor of PCOS and mother of one huge surprise, I’d suggest you continue to be reckless and make out with abandon while considering adoption. Childbirth is overrated, motherhood is idealized, but kids often turn out to be great human beings! Hugs!

BLT… minus the T. And I am in Indy, and I underwent fertility treatments with the most fantastic doctor on the face of the earth. I’m not kidding. I’ve referred several other people to him, and all come away singing his praises, and several have come away singing with babies. Email me, and I’ll give you his name. Good luck!!

I struggled with infertility with my son, it took us 2 years to get pregnant and when we did it was through fertility drugs and IUI. It was tough. Sometimes, really tough. When I finally got pregnant, we had already started saving up to adopt and I’d sort of given up – then it happened!

I just want to say thanks for sharing – it will help other women out there feel less alone. I used the message boards at Fertile Thoughts, and found a LOT of support and information there since I didn’t have any friends with the same experience.

Good luck to you wherever your journey takes you. Throughout the whole thing, I hope you’re able to stay healthy and not be too stressed out!

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After trying for years to have a second baby (and failing) I found out I was pregnant in December. It was a big, yet happy surprise. But I recently miscarried. It has been the second miscarriage, third baby lost. (I can keep houseplants alive, but apparently not fetuses.) I pity partied hard.

Just saying… Thanks for writing about this. It is oddly comforting to know that there are other people going through some difficult stuff in a quest to grow their family. The “tell me about your fave sandwich” is a brilliant idea, btw.

(BLT. But only if I’ve got a chocolate shake to accompany. Yes, Bacon and chocolate. Two great things that (sort of) taste great together.

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Dude. PCOS is no fun and I hope this comment isn’t seen as one of those sappy “when life gives you lemons….” comments because that’s not the intent. My two very best friends had PCOS in their 20’s and 30’s. BOTH were told they would be lucky if they could ever have a child. My friend Laura had three in 2 years, 1 boy and a set of twin boys. My other bff Missy, who didn’t “try” to have kids until her late 30′ was so discouraged that she and her husband adopted a baby girl from China. And of course got immediately pregnant. You are still young and there’s lots of stuff about the female plumbing that those doctors don’t know, I swear to you. Second opinion and lots of good prayers…try not to lose hope although I know how very hard it is. The two women I mention are my two bff’s since college, watched them suffer through it. Big hugs. xoxoxoxxo

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PS-Re: My friend Missy the one who adopted and then got pretty much twins with an adopted baby girl from China and her baby born she gave birth to. After she got pregnant the doctors told her it was a fluke of nature and would never happen again. Until her NEXT daughter was born, two years later. Srsly, the doctors mean well and they know certain things but often they don’t know as much as they seem to know. That’s all I wanted to say.

I also have PCOS and feel your pain. I tried for 3 1/2 years to get pregnant and it finally happened!! Take 2 flinstone vitamins instead of those horse pills they call prenatls! They taste much yummier! Good luck to you!

My heart aches for your desire for another baby. I will keep you in my prayers.

My favorite sandwich is the Monte Cristo. I love that melty cheese, ham and turkey sandwich dipped in batter then fried or done French Toast style. It is so yummy sprinkled with powdered sugar and dipped in raspberry jam. Honestly you need to try it if you have never had one!

I just found your blog, and was going through the archives. I was particularly struck by the fact that you A) live in my home city and B) have PCOS, too.

Though I ovulate regularly, I have all kinds of other PCOS symptoms (heavy middle, cysts on the ovaries, body hair, hair LOSS on my head, etc).

With treatment, most of my symptoms are now gone, or barely noticeable. But, because to get preggos I’d have to come off my meds and then maybe have trouble conceiving, I’m not sure I want children, but I do appreciate your struggle. I wish you the best.

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