moosh in indy.

Oh Casey, I feel for you so much! I’ve battled depression and anxiety for much of my life and HUGS to you. I know how hard that can be and how tough it can be to keep going. If you ever need someone to talk to I’m here. I hope you’re okay and know that you have all kinds of support.

I call it the “monster.” It’s the only was to describe how it completely overtakes life.

My thoughts are with you.

Oh babe! I am sending you fierce hugs and loving thoughts. I wish I could do more. You are completely incredible and I so wish I could make it all better. Keep on fighting and if you need me, I am here.

I’m sorry you are having a rough time. I hope that it gets better very soon.

will still be here. hope things start looking up and you start feeling better.

I am sorry that you are in a bad patch. It sucks when I have been there. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

One of the hardest things for me to admit openly. I’ve dealt with PPD & anxiety after both babies and for the first time with this pregnancy. It’s under control now (“benefits outweighed the risks”!) but when I was in the middle of it during my 1st trimester & early 2nd when people would ask me, “Are you feeling better?” I would say out loud, “Yes…” but would think, “Physically, yes. Emotionally? NOPE.”

BUT people can’t help and be there for you unless you TELL them. You’ve done a good thing.

As a card carrying member of the Moosh Fan Club, I offer a smile and open helping hand whenever you need one.

Lot’s of love and prayers sent your way. Things don’t always go well, but know that we are here to help you pick you up and dust you off when you are ready.

Waiting in the wings…*hugs*

Sending internet hugs & prayers your way.

I’m so sorry. I hope the sun starts to shine for you soon.

I know what it’s like when the monsters come back. Best of luck to you, Casey.

Anxiety sucks. I’ve dealt with it for most of my life, and unless you’ve felt it, it’s hard to explain to others how consuming it is. HANG IN THERE!!!!! XOXOXOXO

hugs to you casey.

I wish badly that I could do SOMETHING? If I can, you’ll tell me, right?

Would a pair of Wiggles tickets put a smile on your face? No? Damn. I’ll keep brainstorming.

Love you.

I’m not sure if this will even mean anything, but even in your dark moments you seem like an incredibly cool person/wife/mother/friend. And gosh, I envy those that get to hang out with you all the time.

Hugs.

I am so impressed with you putting yourself out there and allowing us to watch. You are amazing as a writer, a photographer, a mother, and simply as a person. Hang in there.

can you get some cotton candy? that usually makes me feel a bit better. sometimes kool-aid works too. (((big hugs))) you know you can do it, well, we know you can, just listen to all of us.

Two-Four-Six-Eight…I think you’re really GREAT!!! I even wore my short skirt for that cheer.

Rick Reply:
September 28th, 2009 at 11:38 pm

@Lauraszoo,
Heck, even I’d wear a short skirt if I thought it would do any good. But you don’t want to hear me sing:)

((((BIG HUGS))))

Seems to be going around. I’ve been feeling really depressed/anxious lately, too. Makes you wonder if it can spread through the internet.

Hugs to you, and I hope you know you’re loved by many.

I’ve tried to comment on many of your posts of late but nothing I type up seems adequate. So just know that while you don’t know me, I feel like I know you from reading your blog. I appreciate your openness on here. I can’t imagine how hard this latest post was. I wish you luck and send prayers your way that you will soon be back to feeling like yourself!

Hey, I’m thinking of you. I too have had my share of anxiety and depression. PLEASE don’t forget we all love you and are here for you. You are wonderful, smart, competent, and fabulous. Even if you don’t feel that way inside. If you want to talk, I’m here..email me and I’ll give you my cell if you want it. I’m sure you have lots of friends who care about you, but I do too. Hang in there, girlie, this hell doesn’t last forever. I promise. ~Susan

First, you don’t ever need to be sorry.

Second, you can and will get through this suckiness.

Third, I’m calling you right now.

Love you, lady.

Awww. *hugs*
It was great to meet you, even if you felt like your head wasn’t in the best space to fully enjoy the con.

Casey, take all the time you need for you. I’ve had struggles with major depression & anxiety, so I can relate your words. I’m pulling & praying for you. And I’ll be here when you have more to share.

Hugs. Just great big hugs that might not mean anything but I mean them to mean everything. Hugs.

I’m sorry.

Your picture is still fabulous though!

PPD and anxiety suck. I know because I suffer from them as well. If you need anything don’t hesitate to reach out. I’m always here.

Oh girl – you need to grab that little girl of yours and fly over to Vancouver for some fun! I could take you Whistler and we could take pictures of our sweet children. I will force smiles back into you!!!

And by the way – I am serious. Come here. You will love it. Except that rainy season has started today. But maybe the sun will come out if YOU come. I will have a word with God about it. K?

((hugs)) I know your pain though ours may be different. I am good at the hiding. Too good maybe. You get used to the hiding behind the camera/plastered on smile/the excuses/etc. etc. etc.

Keeping you in my prayers…

{{hugs}} You’re in my thoughts

Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. Hoping that you feel better soon…

Hold tight. You’ll make it.

Hang in there lady.

It probably isn’t something that cheese dip and really amazing Mexican will help, but next time (or anytime) you decide to come down to Louisville, I know where to find some. And sometimes it helps momentarily.

xoxo

*HUGS* and a blankey. you’re not alone.

SO, SO sorry, sweetheart. This is the first post I’ve read in a while, since I’ve been so busy at work. I’m just so sorry. Hang in there.

Hang in there. You have a lot of friends pulling for you and ready and willing to jump in and help with anything you’ll let them do. It’s hard to see it when you feel this way – but you are one lucky lady.

xo

Hugs to you. Here if you need me.

I think you are amazing, no matter what. Someday I hope to tell you that in person. I offer all the support and prayer you need.

I am so sorry. Thinking about you.

**HUGS** Thinking of you, and praying things look up again soon.

Let me know if you’d like anyone to send down chocolate, grilled cheese sandwiches or warm blankets. Those always help.

I’m sorry! Fuzzy hugs your way. Please remember that some of this is probably still medication induced. It *is* going to lift. I’ll pray it lifts quickly and that you feel light and happy again soon!

Hang in there, Casey. I’ve been lurking on your blog for quite a while now, and I always look forward to your insightful and pithy comments. I hope that this hard time passes quickly for you. Know that everyone out here is cheering for you!

much love to you. You know if you need anything I am here for you. Just like you were here for me over the summer.

((hugs)) and prayers honey, it sucks but I know you will come through it.

heart. breaking. for. you. may there be peace where restlessness reigns. may there be understanding in the midst of confusion. may there be hints of joy in the darkest places. may there just be a small crack of light today to flood your soul and give you comfort.

Here for you. I hate when the real me is swallowed up by the fierce fear and sadness that is “the monster”. Keep fighting. (((hugs)))

Focus on taking care of yourself right now. You need to do that once in awhile, and not just take care of those around you! You have a very generous heart, now turn it towards yourself We’ll be rooting for ya

(((((hugs)))))

Thinking of you sweetface.

I hope it’s at least some small comfort that you’re not alone. *hugs* I’ve dealt with this for quite a few years of my short life and that familiar darkness has been creeping back in for me lately too. But look at this — look at all the people pulling for you, loving all over you. That’s the great thing, the people who love you no matter what — and whether you want ‘em to or not! One step at a time, luv. You don’t need to do any more than that.

i can empathize; def been there! feel better!

hugs and love!!

If there was one thing I could do with my life before I die – if there was one thing I could do for people – I would like to figure out where Depression comes from and stop it dead in its tracks. I read about 100 different women’s blogs, mostly Bloggers who are Mothers. I see more angst and Depression in a month than a psychiatrist will see in a year. More than anything I wish I could help. Casey, if I thought it would help I’d be in Indy before you could turn around and say “Help Me!” If for no other reason than to give you a HUG – and let you know it’s okay.

Casey – I don’t know why you’re not equipped with meds, but I’m glad you have your camera to distract you.

Praying for you.

Thinking about you. <3

Casey -
I too am going through a difficult time. I went to the doctor last week and found out some interesting information on some of the medicines that help with this sort of thing.

I hate to post this in comments so, if you are interested, please feel free to contact me personally and I’ll share what I learned.

I’m also on google chat.

Casey,

You are SO BRAVE. Just to say that you are not doing well is the bravest thing ever.

I’m praying for you. It is the biggest, best thing I can do.

Lisa Reply:
September 29th, 2009 at 9:47 pm

@Corey,

I thought the exact same thing. You have put into words the raw blackness that surrounds anxiety and depression. I would give anything to be the person to pull back the curtains and let in the light. Please just watch for the light through the blinds. Keep focused on it and it will get brighter again.

I understand completely. I battle the demons as well.

feel better

feel better
BTW I love your blog!

cheers girl.. I was getting all these happy happy posts about typeamom and some not so happy chats…too..

I can’t travel that much and keep my poop together you know? I see there’s a house in your future?? Hope it MOVES a long.. you sure you don’t want a house in Draper??
(We found a renter.. btw…)

thinking happy thoughts for ya.

So much love to you my friend. So much love.

I know how you feel, I’m in the middle of something right now too. Love and hugs are being sent your way, friend. This too shall pass.

ugh. so horrible. so have been there. so dread it rearing it’s ugly head again. so hate the drugs. so need the drugs. so…..so….

xoxo and prayers.

Only anyone who has ever experienced anx/dep could really know what you’re going through. Only anyone who has ever experienced it can also tell you that it might help to know that you are not alone in this battle. And that somehow, you will come out the other side of this.

I’m sorry you’re having to go through this. But just by getting onto your blog, and stating, matter-of-factly that this is happening? Is a pretty wonderful thing. It makes ME feel less alone, and more normal. Thank you.

xoxo

Thinking of you & sending prayers your way.

Hugs and prayers to you today!

bear hug
xo

Much love to you. Having been there, I know the black hole that sucks it all in. People will be here no matter what. I hope that you can find your way back to the light soon. Thinking of you.

I tried to leave a comment last night. I am rooting for you.

Steph

I call it falling off the cliff. I’ve very recently learned that it’s a chronic disease that I need to manage just like a diabetic manages their insulin level. I haven’t completely figured out how yet, but at least I finally know which monster I need to fight. I emailed you to say more.

If you manage to get out of bed today, call it a victory and pat yourself on the back. If you manage to wash some underwear for everyone and feed the moosh a PBJ, give yourself a high five. If you get the basics done, call it good.

You can do it, Casey. We all know you can.

I’m so thinking of you. Praying for you. I will light a candle for you at Mass tomorrow. Hang in there honey.

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Hugs, love. I’m here. xoxo

I have it, too. ((hugs))

Take care of yourself. I’m sorry.

Take care of yourself. I know it’s hard when the dragon is breathing it’s fire. Hugs.

I’m checking here as often as I check Facebook. Hoping to see an update. Praying you’ll post a word or two saying you’re coming out of the pit.

How strange is it that I thought of The Princess Bride and the Pit of Despair and the ROUS’s? Maybe my stupidity and the weird links and connections that my brain makes will make you smile – just a little.

Hang tough.

Casey, I just want to fly where you are and give you the biggest hug in the whole world. It’s so hard, I know it is. No apologies necessary, not ever. You are an amazing person, and I hope that your journey out of this darkness is short and soon you’re in the light again. (HUGS)

My friend, I’m wishing you everything that you want and need now.

We’ll always be here!

When you’re ready, the sun is out. come play for a while… I know, babe. Really I do. I know. Better days are coming, I swear.

A warm, but gentle hug to you.

Nell

I am so sorry you’re dealing with this. Hang in there!!

The problem with you being awesome is that when you’re not feeling awesome, everyone still thinks you’re awesome, because you still are. So, not a problem really, just a side effect of being awesome. Keep being awesome.

Oh honey. *huge huge hugs*

I love you, Casey… you and your invisible wings.

No need to apologize.

I’m here for you. Hugs and love, and a big punch in the face to depression, who always seems to come after me, too.