Comments on: on infertility and closure.

By: laurie jones

laurie jones — Thu, 11 Feb 2010 22:46:02 +0000

What a beautiful story and it seems like one that more women go through then I had ever thought of, I guess you don’t think about it until you go through it yourself. I have an 11 year old daughter but luckily was able to get pregnant last year with twin girls, but sadly I lost them when they were born prematurely. It’s been 6 months since I’ve lost them and I am still coping everyday with my loss like today when I saw 2 year old twin girls holding hands in Target but I like you have come to peace with the journey I am taking and you’re right all those babies out there are truly gifts. Thanks for sharing your story with all of us!

By: Tara @ Feels Like Home

Tara @ Feels Like Home — Sun, 07 Feb 2010 00:16:45 +0000

I am visiting for the first time, and I can’t stop reading.

What I’ve experienced is nothing compared to you, but I also had a very difficult time getting pregnant and a very difficult pregnancy. I threw up every day, usually 2 or 3 times. Also lost weight and joked about bulemia. How I hated being sick and pregnant and miserable. But nothing, nothing even close to what you described.

I think it’s absolutely amazing that you were willing to go through it all again for a second baby. I wasn’t, until I got pregnant unexpectedly a second time. My husband and I came around to the idea, and then I miscarried.

The pregnancy I didn’t want had become the baby I really wanted. Same for my husband. We tried to conceive. I became the exact same crazy person you described. Every day was a cycle day, a day to monitor CM, or a day to test something. As you know, it’s overwhelming. Through all of that, I discovered that I haven’t ovulated in at least 4 months.

Jealousy, bitterness. It’s so true.

I’m looking at another month of TTC versus going back to being happy with the only child I thought I wanted. My husband wants to continue to TTC; I’m not sure I do.

So anyway, I wanted to leave a comment to say thanks for being so honest. It’s nice to know that we aren’t alone in this miserable, unfair journey.

By: love

love — Thu, 04 Feb 2010 23:27:32 +0000

i’m visiting for the 1st time (i think!) because twitter is all abuzz about you speaking w/ one of my favorite friends in the whole world. =)

this is beautiful and i read with tears filling my eyes. what a perfect place to be….contentment. and as an adoptive and biological mom (but really just a mom) i’m so thankful you mentioned to those waiting that there are other babies that need love.

many blessings to you!

By: Marty

Marty — Wed, 03 Feb 2010 20:42:40 +0000

You are BEAUTIFUl! I love your guts. Even the barren ones…

By: Liss

Liss — Wed, 03 Feb 2010 20:03:03 +0000

this is SO me….thank you for putting into words what i’ve been feeling.

we’ve had infertility plus miscarriages, yet i seem to like banging my head against that wall. maybe now i’ll get over it.

By: Amys blah, blah, blogging

Amys blah, blah, blogging — Mon, 01 Feb 2010 03:21:35 +0000

Wow! That is an amazing place to be. It’s so hard to not be jealous when someone has something we want. I really think you have hit the key in just being content with what you have and being grateful and ok with it. That is a great place to be!

By: Grace @ Sandier Pastures

Grace @ Sandier Pastures — Sun, 31 Jan 2010 11:39:08 +0000

Hi, someone left a comment at my blog recommending your blog. My ob-gyne just dropped a bomb on me saying I have PCOS and likely not have babies anymore. I have a 6 year old girl who longs for baby sisterS and brotherS. I’ve had all the anger, jealousy (at all pregnant ladies) and longing for that sweet baby smell again. We’re still trying but when it’s all done and nothing, I hope to find closure like you did.

Very beautiful post!

By: heather...

heather... — Sun, 31 Jan 2010 04:59:33 +0000

Is it OK if I’m not there yet for you? Can I want it really badly for you and be crushed for you instead?

sigh.

By: Jessalee

Jessalee — Sat, 30 Jan 2010 19:24:56 +0000

So glad you’re at this place! It’s a good head space to be in! I have two, but I’ve always yearned for that cute little number of four since before my uterus would give a little twitch at the sight, sound or thought of a newborn. Alas, I just don’t know that that’s in the cards for me and my own finicky fertile self, and I’m okay with the two that I’ve been blessed with! That’s two more than many!

I’ve read and cried along with you through your struggles, knowing how you feel. It makes my heart happy to know you’re on this side now.

We’re so much more than the zip, boom, pow of our fertility!!!

By: Jen L.

Jen L. — Fri, 29 Jan 2010 23:23:01 +0000

I’m so glad you’re happy, Casey. I recently had one of those moments where I realized how ok I am with my little family of three, too. It’s a great feeling. It also helps that we both TOTALLY hit the jackpot of cuteness with our first babies.