What is the most disappointing moment of your life thus far?
For me, it was Sophomore year of high school.
I had tried out for cheer and dance company in the same week.
I later found out I made neither, again, in the same week.
Dance was my life. And it was taken away from me because of a popularity contest.
It sounds dumb. “Wah, I didn’t make cheer.”
But my heart still hurts when I think about it. I worked so hard to get to where I was, and even though I was more than good enough to be there, a vote from my “peers” told me otherwise.
Anytime I have entered or worked towards something since, I put my whole self into it. I don’t want anyone saying “Wait, how did she get that?” I got it because I worked hard at it. Not because I knew people or knew how to kiss up.
I have very high expectations of myself, however I am also very hard on myself when I don’t live up to them.
Everyone these days is a photographer.
And I spend a lot of time worrying that I will never be good enough.
Just ask Cody.
But twitter (and someone whom I admire) tells me I’m exactly on the path I’m supposed to be on.
The judges at the State Fair tell me I’m doing okay too…
My first reaction was not a good one. It involved a complaint about the ribbon not being blue.
I could have done better, I could have framed it better. I could have exposed it better.
Maybe then it would have gotten blue.
But it doesn’t matter because this picture means the world to her.
Big picture Casey, focus on it, instead of trying to take it.