I am currently awaiting the delivery of Tamales to my Chicago hotel room.

This really has nothing to do with anything, I’m just not entirely sure I’ll ever be in this particular situation again and I feel it needs to me mentioned, because honestly, has there ever been a time in your life where you were waiting for tamales to come knocking at your hotel door? (Actually I’m hoping the tamales don’t actually knock, because then I’ll probably wake up on a plane realizing I was only dreaming about tamale delivery to a hotel room en route to Chicago.)

Why Chicago?

Butterball, yo. I’m back for a second year learning everything there is to know about preparing the perfect turkey.

Only this year I’m pregnant, so when all the raw turkey prep work goes down in the morning I’ll most likely be huddled in a corner with a roasting pan filling in for my usual bucket. Or not, I have high hopes that even Zofran can get me through the scented terror that will be 20 raw turkeys in one room.

My ears perk at every set of footsteps that go by, maybe those are my tamales! You see, since Zofran hopped on board I’ve been able to eat more food. Even enjoy it on occasion. However I’m finding that after losing 12 pounds thus far (boo) my body is attempting to make up for lost fluids with intense salt cravings.

Seriously.

If I could find salt flavored salt I would spread it on bacon, wrap it around pickles and dip the whole mess in fry sauce. I had to physically restrain myself from drinking a twee dipping bowl of leftover soy sauce after lunch. (Turns out my California Roll craving was simply a craving for an efficient soy sauce delivery method.)

I’ve also been able to keep down much more fluids. Which means that instead of the fluids coming back out the way they came in, they’re coming out the way they’re supposed to come out which means I am back to that pregnant lady stereotype of having to pee every 15 minutes, give or take. Let’s just say if I had to pay per flush? We’d be eating nothing but squash all winter, and last I checked there’s no such thing as salt squash.

I can honestly tell you it’s much more enjoyable being the stereotype (PEE! PICKLES!) than it is being the sob story (barf. IVs.)

My tamales are here and they beg my full attention. I hope you are well. I know a lot of you (me included) are gearing up for a long cold winter full of Seasonal Affective Disorder. Pull out those SAD lights, make sure they’re ready for when the gloomies hit. A couple of you have had miscarriages. I hope you’re being well taken care of. One of you (that I know of) is going through Lupron hell. Some of you are going through divorces. Some of you are just having a crappy time because for some reason all the crap in the world hit you square in the face.

I hope you know that even if I don’t know you (or even if I do), I have a special little place in my heart for you. It’s lit with glittery holiday lights and there’s comfy pillows all over the place. You’re always welcome there. Because I know you’ve opened your hearts up to me when I’m not doing so well for whatever reason, it would be selfish not to do the same when I’m doing so well for the moment.

xx

Comments

  1. Oh, I’m glad you’re feeling (a little better). Good luck with the turkeys!

  2. This happy post made me happy! I hope the happy (and healthy) stays around!

    If fellow readers would say a prayer for my friend, Ada, who also has hyperemesis, I’d appreciate it. She’s been hospitalized for two weeks, has a picc line in, and is still losing multiple pounds a day. Thank you, Casey, for sharing your struggles. I was able to give her some resources because of directions in which your posts pointed me.

  3. Ok, hold the phone. You’re telling me if I crave salt fried bacon salt all the time that I’m dehydrated?

    Huh. Wish I’d have known that my past 24 years of life. Very handy. I shall celebrate this new knowledge with a large bottle of water (wine?). And then spending the rest of the evening running to the bathroom.

    So happy you are in a glittery, holiday-lights kind of place right now. And turkeys! YAY TURKEY!

    Take notes about the turkeys! I want secrets!

    Casey Reply:

    @ClassyFabSarah, Well, if you’re NOT pregnant and craving salt it could be a whole other mess of stuff wrong with you. Or that you just appreciate bacon. Of which I do.

    ClassyFabSarah Reply:

    @Casey, Hmm…. I hope I don’t end up on “I Didn’t Know I Was Pregnant.” I mean, I want to be on TLC as much as the next girl but I was hoping for “Say Yes to the Dress” as my debut.

    I’ll get working on our Bacon Appreciation Club t-shirts.

  4. xoxoxo I’m SO glad to hear you’re feeling better! Hope your tamales were all you wanted them to be. I have happy holiday lights in my heart for you, too, you know. And uncomfortably long hugs, of course.

  5. Zofran is my best friend as well right now…glad to be having twins…just not glad for double the morning sickness, hormones, and symptoms! 14 weeks in…this too shall pass…EVENTUALLY! Take care!

    Casey Reply:

    @Windy, you probably have double the boobs too *shiver*

  6. You got Zofran, I got Adderall to add to my litany of bipolar meds… let’s see where this takes us!

    Thanks for the email. *squee!*

  7. Sherry Lane says:

    Thus is such a great post Casey, and so glad to hear your feeling a smidge better! Have fun basting those butterballs!!

    Sherry Lane Reply:

    @Sherry Lane,
    Darn touch screen… Thus=This… :)

  8. Thank you. It made me teary-eyed to think that even though you don’t know me, I am in your heart. I needed that. I feel myself slipping away and your comfy pillows and holiday lights gave me a break from the weight of life right now.

    I’m glad you are feeling better. Enjoy your tamales. Are they filled with green chile and cheese? That’s my fave flavor. Tamales always make me think of teh people who sell them in the wal-mart parking lot late at night. They don’t sell them during the day… only late at night. Why is that?

    Thanks, Casey! Hope you continue to feel better.

    Casey Reply:

    @Val G., I have also added fluffy slippers and cozy blankets at the request of others, so come on in, there’s plenty of room.

  9. This post made me smile, and be happy inside. I emailed you, and you (and even Cody) emailed me back (when he wrote about dealing with a spouse and depression)….since then life has changed a lot, but I’m choosing to still smile and be a bit happier, so I’m glad to see you’re feeling better, hopefully for the rest of your pregnancy! :)

    Casey Reply:

    @Leslie, Glad we could help. :)

  10. Dude! You’re in Chicago? I am going there tomorrow! Unfortunately it is for the funeral of a family member’s friend (sort of random and convoluted story), but if you ever come again I would love to meet you in person and see your sweet baby bump!

    Glad things are turning around for you!

    Casey Reply:

    @Heidi, We should plan a Chicago getaway. Right in the middle, gets meeting each other out of the way…

  11. I dare you to find a big old maternity shirt with “I Want To Be A Butterball.” on the front. Because that would be awesome, and maybe give your body another reminder it needs to be gaining weight. Not freaking losing it! Yay for zofran! Yay for bacon wrapped around pickles! Yay for tamales!

    Casey Reply:

    @Ami, By the way, when will you be making pickles?

  12. Tamales?

    You do know that the pregnant lady heartburn stereotype isn’t a requirement, right?

    Casey Reply:

    @SciFi Dad, AH! I didn’t get heartburn with Addie until the week before she came. Not that I’m thinking I’m immune, but I think I deserve a break.

  13. That was a very sweet post, I’m so happy you have zofran, that was a life saver for me the 2nd time around too. XX

  14. Zofran is amazing. Hopefully it will allow you to gain some weight like it did for me! Enjoy Chicago!

  15. Mmmmm, tamales. Delivered straight to the door is even better! I also love comfy pillows and holiday lights, so thanks for that, too. I hope the turkey hullabaloo goes well and the roasting pan doesn’t have to do substitute duty. So glad you’re feeling well. Keep it up (or down, as the case may be), Mozzi! Casey needs to EAT. :)
    Chicago…pizza…mmmmm.
    Travel safe.

    Casey Reply:

    @Mary, I would have ordered pIzza last night but it was a $50 minimum order to get pizza delivered to the hotel. Even zofran can’t do $50 worth of pizza.

  16. Beware the raw turkey. Even without hyperemesis, just constant nausea, I couldn’t even get a slight whiff of raw chicken (or onions, or garlic) while pregnant. I sure hope the zofran helps the smell situation. Good luck!

  17. So glad to hear that you are feeling a bit better. I hope it lasts for you! I also agree with SciFi Dad’s comment regarding heartburn, I hope you don’t get that. I am also pregnant (about 15 weeks) and the first thing I thought when I read tamales was “oh no, the heartburn will be intense!” I’m guessing a little tamale related heartburn is still much better than what you’ve been experiencing though. Anyway, super congrats and may you eat (and keep down) all the salt that your body desires!

    Casey Reply:

    @Therese, No heartburn! Only Tamale goodness! WIN!

  18. I love the salt flavored salt idea. I have been eating ramen a lot – for similar reasons. So glad you’re getting the nourishment (ie: tamales) you need.

    Casey Reply:

    @Holly, Ramen is pretty much where it’s at. (It being deliciousness.)

  19. I’m cozying up onto one of those pillows, thanks!

    So glad you’re feeling better! Enjoy every bite!

    Casey Reply:

    @punkinmama, Sorry, I drooled on that one a little, how embarrassing.

  20. I’m so glad you’re feeling better. Good luck with the Tamales. :-)
    Take care,

  21. So glad you are feeling a bit better. I was actually thinking of you while browning my garlic and onions for last night’s dinner, remembering how it had made my stomach turn 3 times in my life and there you were in my brain.

    I hope it’s all downhill (uphill? depends) for you now.

    Trying my best to keep SAD at bay before it swallows me whole this year. Thanks :)

    Casey Reply:

    @Lizz B, Maybe we should plan a day to huddle around our SAD lights and eat oranges.

  22. Zofran FTW!!!!

    The thought of you being able to eat and travel and not vomit all day long makes me so freaking happy. Am thrilled for you.

  23. mommabird2345 says:

    Glad you are feeling (a little) better. And, now *I* want pickles & bacon. (no, I’m not preggo, just love me some pickles & bacon) :)

  24. Glad you are doing well. Good luck with the turkeys!

  25. mmm…salt and comfy pillows.

  26. Amy in StL says:

    Aww, I’m so glad you’re feeling better. I would like the place for me to also have fluffy soft slippers. :)

    You know, I tell my boyfriend stories about my friend Casey and all she’s going through – and we’ve never met but you are a good friend to have.

    Casey Reply:

    @Amy in StL, Slippers added. As well as some high quality blankets. xo

  27. I’m wondering why i’ve never had tamales!? I loved this post. Thanks for the comfy pillows. :) And YAY for Zofran!!

    Casey Reply:

    @Skye, I blame Canada. I also blame the US for not having poutine. SALTY CHEESE< SALTY FRIES> SALTY GRAVY? WIN WIN WIIIIIN! (Also? Totally going to be in Canada next week. I will drain your country dry of poutine.)

  28. Comfy pillows and twinkly lights. Are there also soft blankets that keep you the perfect amount of warmth and fit you perfectly where you have just the right amount to tuck under your chin and wrap around your feet?

    Casey Reply:

    @Heather @ Domestic Extraordinaire, Yes, those fancy ones from Brookstone. I spare not comfortable expense.

  29. So so so glad you are feeling better. Medical advances are a wonderful thing, eh?

    Casey Reply:

    @Halala Mama, Now if they could just install a zipper in my belly…

  30. Butterball U is one of the craziest things I’ve ever heard of, but if you walk away with turkey superpowers I’m all for it. Do you plan to use these powers for good?
    I’m very glad to hear the meds are working for you at least a bit, get that weight back on your bones!

    Casey Reply:

    @Neeroc, I plan to rid the world of overcooked, pale turkeys one oven at a time…

  31. Uh, if you’re going to actually create that pickle/bacon/fry sauce concoction, I want one too. I won’t tell anybody. It can be our pregnant little salty secret. Salt…nom…

    Casey Reply:

    @Tricia, The food network is going to feature it and I am going to be rich I tell you.

  32. I couldn’t stop eating salt, either.

    Fortunately (depending on how you look at it) I never threw up once during either of my pregnancies, so all that salt resulted in a 50 lb weight gain, which (other than the whole baby package part of course) resided primarily in my ankles and my feet, which swelled up so much that you could see them turn white from the pressure when i “bent them back” far enough to have them flat on the floor while standing. That, and the swollen nose thing was probably related.
    It kinda sucked. But I was wise to it the second time around so it wasn’t quite as bad. And…. no IVs.

    But boy can I feel ya on those salt cravings.

  33. It took me almost 35 years to eat a tamale. I didn’t think I’d like them. I have a lot of lost time to make up for. You have me craving pickle juice now. I can’t decide between bread and butter or regular dill. :D Enjoy Chicago. I miss it so much, especially at this time of year.

  34. ooh great now I’m craving tamales, with sour cream and guacamole, rice and beans on the side……and I’m not even pregnant… yet.

    Hope they are yummy!

  35. You’re sounding gooooooood today.

    So, this place with teh comfy pillows… will you have tamales there? Because I think I need to come chill for a week or twelve.

  36. you realize I’m gonna have to hold a garage sale in November and sell a bunch of stuff to buy you copious amounts of Zofran to get you through the long winter.

    Don’t think I wont. Because I will…

  37. Glad you are feeling better…hope the meds keep working! Enjoy your pregnancy as much as you when you can.

  38. I’m supposed to be writting my observation paper for my Human Development class right now, instead I am doing what I do best, procrastinating!

    Oh Zofran, how I love thee! I feel that I must hold a moment of silence in honor of such a miracle drug!! I too took that with my eldest daughter. It was the most miraculous prescription ever written in my name!

    And on the note of seasonal depression, BLAH!! I think I need to try and get my insurance to pay for me to move where it is sunny 24/7-365! I would do fantastic. I am not looking forward to the snowfall that is about to happen. I am hoping this winter is a tad bit different since I am taking Karate. Maybe it will be helpful that my blood will be pumping through my veins at a higher rate then if I were curled up under my covers.

    I wrote a paper for my marriage and family relations class on Post Partum Depression, got a 100% BTW, anyways, the hardest part about emotions I believe is that they are internal, they are individual; it’s not like you can see them like a cut and now exactly how to fix it.

    Thanks for always sharing and I too hope that your Tamales were all that your cravings made them out to be!

  39. Maybe it’s just one of those days and I’m usually a lurker refusing to comment, but knowing that the nameless people who read your blog are in your mind and thoughts makes the world seem like a little bit brighter of a place. Not completely glowy yet, but give me some time, and maybe I’ll regain enough faith in humanity to see the glow again. :)

  40. i literally just smiled out loud for you. you know what i mean? a smile that is so happy it almost laughs, but doesn’t? anyway–i’m glad to hear you here. even if for this day, but i hope for many more. i never felt this with my pregnancies, though i pray that i can have one more and feel this!

  41. I am SO GLAD the Zofran is working and you can eat!! Speaking of soy sauce, I did a review last Thanksgiving for Kikkoman where I brined a turkey overnight in a water/soy sauce brine, and oh man was it good. If you’re a soy sauce fan you should try it!

    And yes, I’m looking over my shoulder out my picture window, bright blue sky, sunshine, and dreading January and February. Even with Effexor, winter is hard. Thanks for the good thoughts :) xoxo

  42. Um yeah, my doc suggested a SAD light. I classify that in the category I list aerobics video DVDs — even though I can do it alone, I still feel oddly exposed. Why is that? Does this even make sense? (LOL)