It’s certainly not depression.
It most resembles anxiety.
It’s bubbling just under the surface.
A sort of knot in my stomach.
A lump in my throat.
A consistent reminder that something in my brain is broken.
Capable of ruining everything at a moments notice.
So far so good.
I’d like to keep it that way.
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By Jen on 08.20.11 9:36 pm | Permalink
Twitter: @jayesel
hugs, friend. xoxo
By Pgoodness on 08.20.11 10:57 pm | Permalink
Twitter: @pgoodness
You’re fabulous
Great picture….you have so many! I would want to frame them all!!
By Joules on 08.20.11 10:58 pm | Permalink
Twitter: @Lucidlotuslife
*fingers crossed*
By Lindsay on 08.20.11 11:14 pm | Permalink
I’ve been there but for me it got much worse. Please do not hesitate to reach out for help. Pulling for you, friend.
By Jamie on 08.20.11 11:18 pm | Permalink
Twitter: @chosenchaos
wishing and hoping it stays just as you wish.
By Kimberly on 08.21.11 12:28 am | Permalink
Twitter: @momgosomething
Kick that beyotch in the ass and tell it where to go…and when you’re done come and kick mine inits ass too so that we can sit back and watch our sweet babes in happy peace
Hugs friend. You can do this.
By Adventures In Babywearing on 08.21.11 9:05 am | Permalink
Twitter: @babysteph
Oh, thinking of you. xoxo
Steph
By Jessica V. on 08.21.11 9:30 am | Permalink
Twitter: @bubzaymamma
Here here! Preaching to the wacky brain chemicals choir. We have your back! Ugh, depression and anxiety are such a-holes.
By Chrisy on 08.21.11 11:27 am | Permalink
Twitter: @ChrisyRoss
My youngest is 5YO, so I’m beyond the post birthing brain, however I know *lumpy* anxiety. Sounds like you’re hanging tough. Hang in there. You’re not alone.
By Rachael on 08.21.11 12:54 pm | Permalink
Twitter: @rachael1013
I’ve been lumpy lately too. But I think it’s getting better… Hope yours does too. (Hugs)
By Penbleth on 08.21.11 1:42 pm | Permalink
Twitter: @penbleth
I hope you keep it at bay. Plus another gorgeous photo.
By Kylee on 08.21.11 3:31 pm | Permalink
Twitter: @twopretzels
Wish I could reach through the interwebs and hug you and just nod and say, “You’re loved. You can do this.”
By designhermomma on 08.21.11 3:40 pm | Permalink
Twitter: @designhermomma
Man, we are a bunch of messy, lumpy and bumpy people.
Glad I’m not alone, but wish you didn’t feel this way either.
That makes sense, right?
By Shannon on 08.21.11 6:58 pm | Permalink
Twitter: @mommyrhetoric
Casey, I just want to say thank you for sharing this side of yourself. It really gives the rest of us that are scared to do it guts. I know you certainly made it easier for me to talk about.
Thanks….Shannon
By Momo Fali on 08.21.11 9:26 pm | Permalink
Twitter: @momofali
Nope, not allowed to rear it’s head. Because I said so!
By Momo Fali on 08.21.11 9:27 pm | Permalink
Twitter: @momofali
ITS! ITS head. And, it’s an ugly head, at that.
By molly on 08.21.11 9:38 pm | Permalink
Twitter: @adayinmollywood
Good for you! I’m glad it’s steering clear of your happiness
By Melody on 08.22.11 11:02 am | Permalink
Twitter: @simonesmom
Been there too. Stays on the edges now with the right meds. Anti-depressants and x.a.n.a.x as needed keep it at bay most of the time. You see it. You tell people. You reach out. You can keep it under control. Sending light.
By moosh in indy. » “you are stronger than anything broken inside of you.” on 08.29.11 12:04 am | Permalink
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