Oh Addie.

I am so proud of you it makes my throat itch.

Hey, remind me again, who was that first grader who read a third grade level book out loud, to her class?

Oh yeah, that was you.

There is so much worry these days about young girls being sexualized before they have a chance to realize their true worth and capabilities. You my love, my beautiful curly headed daughter with the gangly legs, sprinkle of freckles and eyelashes for days?

You are becoming the smart girl. You are bordering on dork. Nerd. Smartypants. Bookworm. Brainiac.

addie doing homework.

And I couldn’t be more proud.

I was the smart girl. I was the quirky weird dork who loved reading and had an affinity for Shakespeare long before anyone else in my class could spell Hamlet. I dazzled the ACT (32.) I sailed through the ACT (1423.) I looked forward to geometry and never got less than an A- through high school. National Honors Society? Yep.

But here’s my confession. One very few people know.

I dropped out of high school my senior year. Because of a boy.

After interviewing with colleges I went to his house full of excitement about scholarships, far off places (Texas to be exact) and figuring out what I wanted to be when I grew up.

He was a high school drop out too. He asked me why I even bothered staying with him if I was just planning on leaving him for college.

Who knows what I would have become had I kept those college brochures in my hands instead of dropping them for him. There’s really no sense in wondering.

I would have never met your dad had I left that day with the pamphlets and without a boyfriend.  I would have never gotten the highest score possible on the GED. Vivi wouldn’t be here. This blog wouldn’t be here. YOU wouldn’t be here.

You, my intelligent baby with my ears and my blue eyes.

There is nothing wrong with being smart.

And anyone who tells you otherwise?

Is just jealous.

addie. big big addie.

Stay geeky my love.

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Speaking of geeky, I babbled the seedy underbelly of Nursery Rhymes.

Comments

  1. I feel silly for not knowing you got your GED. I’ve been reading your blog for a lloonng time! I too got mine, (for different, yet slightly similar reasons to you) and I OFTEN feel like it somehow makes me less then others. I’m pretty sure it’s a stigma I attach to myself but I do it, and often. It has never made me less of a person however. I just graduated from nursing school second in my class :) thanks casey, not that you know it but you just made me a little more accepting of myself. :)

  2. I love that you went back for your GED. It just proves that smart isn’t always about books and tests and long division–it’s about insight and foresight and the ability to stay ahead even if you’ve fallen behind. It’s about belief in yourself. It’s about making good decisions without spending too long dwelling on the bad ones.

    If your daughter turns out anything like her mama, I imagine she’ll be in great shape.

  3. Dear Addie,

    In our house we say Geeks Will Rule the World.

    And they will. So, rock it.

    p.s. Bill Gates makes more money than pretty much anyone, and that doesn’t stink either.

  4. My geeks need to come visit yours. You and I can sit back and listen to them talk about supernovas and black holes and other things I didn’t know about until I was at least 20.

  5. LOVE her Robot Shirt! Great photo! My first grader would love her shirt too. He is geeky too. He knows SO much more in first grade then I did at his age.

  6. That’s why our kids love to hang out. They speak the same language :)

  7. Addie is absolute perfection. I love her, I love you. xo

  8. Beautifully written and oh so true. Keep learning, keep reading, keep striving, anyone trying to stop you IS only jealous, or fearful, or both.

  9. Being a dork, a nerd, a geek, right now, is the way to survive. You have to be smart to get anywhere. :D

    You have a beautiful daughter and you’re an amazing mother, from what I’ve read. You have life experiences that you’ll be able to tell your daughters about, things that will help them with their future. If one had no regrets in life, one truly has never known happiness, or something like that.

  10. I love robots too.

    Also Lego? I think our girls would get along well. (Also also: have you seen the Lego Advent Calendars? Daily fun WITHOUT chocolate.)

  11. I was the smart kid all through grade school and in high school I started to get B’s instead of A’s so that I’d have friends – since I really didn’t in gradeschool. In college I flunked out because I thought boys liked the party girl more. I went back and got my degree but I’ve learned that men like smart women, little boys like dumb girls. I totally let my geek flag fly – even though it still makes me unpopular with the popular crowd at work… I no longer care.

  12. I love this so much! Your girls have such a great mom!!!

  13. I think its awesome that Addie is so inclined to reading and writing. I wish I could motivate Ben to be more excited by learning, I tell myself he’s only 4.5, but I’ve known kids at the age that just can’t wait to learn how to read. He loves books, looking at the pictures, being read to, making up stories, but has no actual interest in reading the words. You have a very smart (and beautiful) girl on her hands, even if she had a brother she wouldn’t need him to do her homework.

    PS. I can’t believe you remember your ACT and SAT scores. I think I remember the latter, but not the ACT.

  14. I too am a high school dropout. I was a smart girl who made poor choices. I have my GED as well. I have an excellent career, and can balance work and family like any one else. But it does suck knowing there is that one thing that I quit on. I have never been a quitter again.

  15. I have been a lurker on your blog for a while now. I just had to comment cause this comment hits home! My situation is almost identical. I was a smartypants, ms. do nothing wrong and accepted to my dream university my senior year of high school. So, when it was time to go, why was I still at home…….a boy, a high school dropout who broke up with me the October after I graduated.

    After my heart was broken, i met my “baby daddy” 2 weeks later. So,when my now 10 year old, who is my clone academically, asks why I didn’t go to college right after high school, I tell her the truth and she should learn from my mistakes. Heck, she wouldn’t be here if I went off to college when I was suppose to. oh, and boys are icky.
    You have beautiful girls and I love your honest and entertaining blog! :))) love from TX!

  16. I got my GED while in the Service – I recorded the highest scores USAFI had ever seen on their GED tests. However, I did attend college after I came home from ‘Nam. But I was able to because I’d gotten my GED. And you know what? I’ll tell you a secret. For college? It’s never too late to start. Never.

  17. i love that you don’t shy away from who you are. terrific post.

  18. I agree it is never too late to start college, I think it is smarter in a way since you really know what you want to do and are able to focus on that. There is no rush either! Maybe a BFA in photography!

    Nerds unite!

    also i see a fluffy diapered butt! go cloth diapers!

  19. Funny how when you look back at decisions you’ve made in lief (good and bad) and can see how the good things you got later in life wouldn’t be here without those past decisions. Crazy. Your daughters have a fantastic role model in their mama. xoxo

  20. Oh friend, there is something incredible about this post. It made the hair on my arms (and sadly, on my legs, too) stand up on end.

    Your prayer, your plea, your encouragement to Addie all because, GIRL — you.have.been.there. It’s just another example of how we ache for our children to be better than US.

    I feel it, too.

    And as a fellow dork – I say, GO ADDIE. Sweet girl, you can do this.

  21. Stay geeky indeed!

  22. It is the age of the geek. It’s their world and we are just living in it! Way to go, Addie (and Casey). :) Love you girls.

  23. Hell yes.

    (intelligent comment, no?)

    Go Addie.

    Casey, miss you. xo

  24. Love it. Love you. Love your kiddos. Nerds UNITE!

  25. Love this, sweetie.

  26. I love a girly bookworm. :)

  27. Being a geek is so much more fun than not being a geek. Welcome to the crew, Addie!

  28. Nor is there anything wrong with dropping out of high school, Casey my love. <3 Everyone has their own path, and you? Have rocked yours.

    But getting back on topic, I love that Addie is a bookworm. I was that kid who got in trouble for reading novels in class, because I just couldn't read enough. I was the kid who, in third grade, went to a fifth grade class for Reading and it was still below my level. I struggled all throughout grade school because I hated that most of it — because math is my enemy — was so easy for me. I dumbed myself down, too, for fear of being made fun of.

    I’m not saying that’ll be Addie; I’m excited that there’s someone else out there like me. We smart girls have to stick together. <3

  29. Casey I too dropped out of high school. I tell everyone that it’s because my high school worried too much about appearance (uniforms) rather than the education it’s students received. And while that’s totally true, I also dropped out because my boyfriend dropped out and I couldn’t imagine being away from him all day long.

    Then we both started home school and I ended up graduating a year early. So yeah, let’s hear it for the smart girls! Go Addie!

    (PS: I married that high school dropout boyfriend, so it’s not nearly as dramatic as it sounds now.)