*clears cobwebs*


Oh, hello. You’re still here? Bless you.

The past few months have been tricky. Not particularly hard but very hard to put into words.

Vivi will most likely grow up to become either a serial killer or the next Ke$sha, regardless, there is a freezer full of glittery dead hobos in her future.

Addie? Well. Addie had a really rough August. She has started to show signs of chemical depression and anxiety and it hurts me more than I can even comprehend to know this may be a struggle she faces for the rest of her life.

Cody is hunky as ever with his big strong man hands and fear of bugs.

Me? I’m okay. I really am.

I’d like to be back here. I want to be back here.

This is the first step to doing just that.

Racing stuffs.


  1. Sending love to you and the moosh. Good to see you back here.

  2. I have a daughter that began showing signs at nearly the same age as Addie. She’s 20 now. If I can help, or you need an ear…… So glad you’re back.

  3. Nice to “see” you! I’m sorry about Addie. We started our 10 year old in counseling this summer. Things just weren’t going well for/with him. It’s so hard to watch, to be responsible for his well-being as a parent, but be unable to fix it for him. Thoughts and prayers to you and Addie!

  4. I rarely (never?) comment, but I’m so glad to see you back in this space.

  5. Hi! I was just thinking of you the other day and wondering how life was with you all. I figured life was busy and maybe just a little hard, so I sent up a quick prayer. I’ll continue to do so, especially for Addie and wisdom for yourself and Codie. My 21yo daughter has had a hard 18 months with anxiety and other health issues (having to take a year off study), but she has about 6 weeks left till she’s finished. I think she’ll do okay. I’m keeping my hair colorist in business!! But, God is good.

    It is lovely of you to pop in and say hello in the midst of it all.

  6. Rebecca (Ramblings by Reba) says:

    Oh, Addie. I am so sorry.

  7. Good to have you back. Know that I’m always checking up on you via your blog! I love you, and would love to chat with you on the soon! i’ll call you! Hope the girls have a wonderful school year! Tell Addie to hang in there!

    Love ya!

  8. My 6th grader is showing signes of anxiety, much later than I did but still. Gut punch…
    Hugs and comfort from me to you.

  9. I’m glad you’re back! I checked in every now and then, and well I figured that you just abandoned the blogging thing. I’m glad that you did not! I’m sorry that Addie is having a hard time, childhood is tough on everyone, it must really stink to have a little extra something on top. We will of course be sending our warm and fuzzy thoughts your way!

  10. Jasmine Robertson says:

    Glad to have you back, you were missed. Thinking about you all and sending positive vibes and thoughts!

    We’ve missed you. Prayers as you navigate Addie’s journey.

  12. You’ve been missed…very glad your wit and candor are back on my screen.

    My oldest began walking her path with depression and anxiety when she was seven (early onset because of dealing with chronic critical illness). Not gonna lie – it has been a long, painful journey for both of us. It is even harder to watch your child go through something when you KNOW firsthand EXACTLY how it feels. I am thankful that I had the experience to know what was happening with her, and grateful that treatments and options have some so far since I was a child. Em is 20 now, and doing well most of the time. She understands her triggers, she (and we) know the warning signs of a decline, and we talk openly, even when it is hard or painful. She has grown into a strong, fierce, compassionate woman with a wicked sense of humor. I am endlessly proud of her. Addie has a strong family (not the least of which is her mama) and it may not be easy, but she is very strong, too. My thoughts, prayers and lots of virtuall {{{hugs}}} are sent your way.

  13. I meant call you on the phone soon! have a wonderful week! xoxo

  14. Addie's Future Mother-in-Law says:

    So glad to see that you haven’t let the haters win. Be real, stay true, and write your pain into something bearable.

  15. <3

  16. I check in regularly and was beginning to wonder why you had “gone dark.” Terribly sorry to hear about what may be in Addie’s future, but she is exceedingly lucky to have a mom and dad who know what’s up. It would have been awful to be her with parents who “didn’t get it” and just kept trying to cheer her up.
    Lots of prayers and love headed your way!

  17. I never comment, and I’m just a stranger, but I’m glad you’re back. Your writing is important to me!

  18. Another non-commenter but I’ve been checking a few times to see if you were back and am glad you are! Not so glad about Miss Addie having troubles though. Hugs to you all.

  19. I cannot remember a time in my life where I didn’t battle anxiety and/or depression. I’m almost 44 now and I can remember having severe anxiety in kindergarten, but it was definitely came out more when I was in the first grade. I know that, with your love and support, Addie will be able to get through it. You are one amazing mom. I love you.

  20. glad you are back. Addie is blessed to have parents that are looking out for her.

  21. Vicky Struyk says:

    You’ve been missed!

  22. paleblueorchid says:

    I’m so glad you’re back. I am so sorry that Addie seems to be facing similar struggles. But I know with you and Cody she will get the help she needs. Probably sooner than she’d ever get help with parents who have never known that struggle. You are exactly what she needs right now.

  23. (((hugs)))

  24. I’ve missed you! Still check in every once in a while to see if you’ve written, so I was glad to see an update today (even if it came with some sadness). I’m glad Addie has a mama who understands and will do everything she can to help.

  25. Took me a while I find my way back here to check in on you. I’m glad to hear that you’re all still among the upright. You’ve been missed.