It’s certainly not depression.

It most resembles anxiety.

It’s bubbling just under the surface.

A sort of knot in my stomach.

A lump in my throat.

A consistent reminder that something in my brain is broken.

Capable of ruining everything at a moments notice.

So far so good.

big cody and little cody snooze.

I’d like to keep it that way.


  1. hugs, friend. xoxo

  2. You’re fabulous

    Great picture….you have so many! I would want to frame them all!!

  3. *fingers crossed*

  4. I’ve been there but for me it got much worse. Please do not hesitate to reach out for help. Pulling for you, friend.

  5. wishing and hoping it stays just as you wish.

  6. Kick that beyotch in the ass and tell it where to go…and when you’re done come and kick mine inits ass too so that we can sit back and watch our sweet babes in happy peace 😉
    Hugs friend. You can do this.

  7. Oh, thinking of you. xoxo


  8. Jessica V. says:

    Here here! Preaching to the wacky brain chemicals choir. We have your back! Ugh, depression and anxiety are such a-holes.

  9. My youngest is 5YO, so I’m beyond the post birthing brain, however I know *lumpy* anxiety. Sounds like you’re hanging tough. Hang in there. You’re not alone. 🙂

  10. I’ve been lumpy lately too. But I think it’s getting better… Hope yours does too. (Hugs)

  11. I hope you keep it at bay. Plus another gorgeous photo.

  12. Wish I could reach through the interwebs and hug you and just nod and say, “You’re loved. You can do this.”

  13. Man, we are a bunch of messy, lumpy and bumpy people.

    Glad I’m not alone, but wish you didn’t feel this way either.

    That makes sense, right?

  14. Casey, I just want to say thank you for sharing this side of yourself. It really gives the rest of us that are scared to do it guts. I know you certainly made it easier for me to talk about.


  15. Nope, not allowed to rear it’s head. Because I said so!

  16. ITS! ITS head. And, it’s an ugly head, at that.

  17. Good for you! I’m glad it’s steering clear of your happiness 🙂

  18. Been there too. Stays on the edges now with the right meds. Anti-depressants and x.a.n.a.x as needed keep it at bay most of the time. You see it. You tell people. You reach out. You can keep it under control. Sending light.


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