If you know Cody then you’ll know that he is the very strong, very silent type. He doesn’t show much emotion, especially strong emotions.

There have only been two times in our ten year marriage that Cody has been unable to control what he’s feeling on the inside from showing on the outside. The first time was December 14, 2004 and the second time was May 4, 2011.

The look on Cody’s face when he first saw his new babies was so wonderful that for a split second I convinced myself that we have to do this again.

in daddy's arms

Then my brain caught up with my emotions and reminded my emotions that my parts hadn’t even been sewn up yet so I should probably back off the family planning for the moment.

I was so emotionally absent when Addie was born. I never felt that fierce loyal bond that women talked about, part of me was convinced they were all lying. I saw how in love Cody was and wondered what was wrong with me.

But this time? I can’t get enough of this little girl. There have been several occasions where I am just absolutely sure my heart is going to explode with all the happiness and love that is surrounding me. I have been happy before, I have been in love before, but not like this.


This is overpowering, all encompassing.

Maybe it’s because I had to wait so long for her.

Maybe it’s because I had to go through so much to get her here.

Maybe it’s because Addie is holding her next to me singing “You are my baby siiiiister.”

addie and miss vivi.

I start to feel guilty that Addie was robbed of her mom for the first several months of her life. But Vivi will never have my undivided attention for the first six years of her life. Both little girls are already so different, and I suppose God knew what He was doing when He sent them to me in the season He did.

I woke up to Addie and Cody snuzzling over Vivi in bed next to me. The sun coming up behind them.

It’s all too wonderful to take in. Her smells. Her sounds. Her warmth.

There have been difficulties. There will probably be more. (and believe me, we’ll discuss.)

But it’s safe to say I’ve never been happier.

apparently my belly is a happy place to be.


  1. *sigh*


  2. AHHHHHHH, she is so beautiful! So happy for you!

  3. You make beautiful babies, my friend. I am so happy for you. So happy. xoxoxo

  4. This is exquisite…. your presence… your emotion – your raw motherhood. I’m proud of you, I’m delighted for you – I’m in awe of you. Much love my friend – to all of you.

  5. My heart is nearly exploding for you guys. 🙂

  6. Bask in the beauty, love, happiness…

  7. I adore this for you. Every second of it. You deserve everything and your babies do too. I love seeing you so happy.

    Don’t regret what you can’t change babe. Just focus on now. On both of those amazing girls.

    Ps. Vivi is killing my uterus right now. 😉

  8. I am blissing on your happiness and maybe a lil bit teary (in the best possible way) reading this. SO HAPPY FOR YOUR HAPPY.


  9. Well, now I’m crying. I am so so happy for you. For all of you. So happy for you that apparently my tear ducts burst.

  10. Big fat hugs and kisses!!!

  11. Can I just tell you that I love the word “snuzzling” so much now? And that last photo is an amazing capture and a total gift to have.

    I’m so so happy for you. Have I mentioned that yet? 😉

  12. Heather says:

    She is just precious and you can tell Addie is in love. And you too! Congratulations! Xxoo
    Ps – I’ll teach her how to say “y’all” in my best southern accent! 🙂

  13. sam temptingsam says:

    Gah!!! I can’t wait to come see you!!! I am so unbelievably happy for you guys.
    S xo

  14. I often think that part of what makes my love so strong for my children is seeing the love and amazement they have for eachother. It sweetens everything one notch more.

    Each experience is a unique blessing and all to it’s own. No two are the same no matter how many you have!!

    Angela <

  15. And they say that newborns don’t smile. That is so NOT gas! 🙂 She is absolutely precious! Congrats!

  16. Oh Casey. Way to make a girl tear up. It’s the best kind of strange to be out-of-body happy for someone else like this but here we are. Blissed out for you and that family of yours. It’s beautiful.

  17. There is nothing more gratifying than giving your child a sibling. And you will never be happier in your life than the first time you see them laugh together. Sending so many well wishes and lots of baby hugs and kisses your way.

  18. I’m so very happy for you. And I firmly believe that God gives you the kid you need at the moment you get them. Also? that photo at the end makes me giggle out loud each time I look at it. Thanks for sharing your girls with us.

  19. <3

  20. Susan Elling Alberda says:

    Oh honey, you have earned this. Enjoy this. You and your beautiful girls and your wonderful husband, soak this in. *This* is what will be imprinted on your heart and in your mind for the rest of all time. So, so happy for you.

  21. You just gave me that little piece of hope I so desperately needed today. Thank you.

  22. Your girls are beautiful. I’m so happy for you. Congratulations!

  23. sniffling — tears

    just damn.

    I could not possibly be happier for you or sappier.


  24. Good gravy this makes my heart sing.

  25. Did I tell you or did I tell you??? <3 you all…

  26. Even though I my work allows me to see birth OFTEN, I STILL cannot believe that an entire human baby can fit in a woman’s body. I mean, looking at her all curled up like that HELPS, but she still seems much too big to fit in there. HOW DOES IT WORK???

    That’s a gorgeous photo by the way. And I’m so happy for you… so so happy!

  27. My heart is bursting for you my friend!!

    For those of us who endured terrible postpartum with our firstborns, having our second babies is such an incredible opportunity to feel all the joy with much less of the fears and tears!!!

  28. I get all choked up every single time I see a picture of Vivi. All teary eyed. sigh. love.

  29. I know it I know it I know just it.

    I am bursting for you now, too.


  30. The first child… is the first child. But that second one? There’s just something different… Maybe it’s being free of that terror that comes with being a first time parent… maybe it’s knowing how fleeting those first few months are.
    I know how you feel. My heart exploded early for that second one too.
    So happy to see you so happy… struggles or not.

  31. That last picture made me break out into a very large grin!

    I’m happy for you, friend. So HAPPY!!!

  32. I am so happy for you! Your girls are both beautiful and so lucky to have you.

  33. *swoon*

    Congrats again to you and your beautiful family!

  34. I’m dying over that last one of her smiling. What a sweetheart. I’m glad it’s going well for you and I pray the hard parts get easier soon.

  35. Ahh, crying happy tears for you. This is amazing to me. 🙂

  36. Perfect. I am so, so glad this is happening for YOU! Great big happy tears. What a lucky bunch you are!

  37. you are killing me here. beautifully perfect. 🙂

  38. Oh, my goodness. She is so darling, so beautiful. You are a glowing, beautiful mom, too. And having two children is the most wonderful thing, especially when you see them interacting. Your heart will be bursting with love for a very, very long time. Enjoy and cherish every single moment! Congrats again. xoxo

  39. She is beautiful. Don’t worry about the past now. For you hold your future in your hands =)

    Congratulations. She is a sweetheart!

  40. I’m saving this post in my hope file. This post will be where I come on darker days to remind myself that there are beautiful things in life.


    Untypically Jia Reply:

    That question mark is supposed to be a heart. LOL.

  41. Oh my goodness! How did you get her to smile already!?!? HA! 😀

    I can “hear” the happy in this post. Congratulations! She is amazing.

  42. My husband is telling me to go rent a baby because the pictures are making me want another! Thankfully, I have a friend nearby who’s due in 33 weeks, so I can “rent” her baby 😉

    Congratulations again on the beauty that is Vivi.

    I’m so glad that you’re able to enjoy this post-partum period more than you were before. After all that you went through, you deserve that!

  43. Best. post. ever.

    i want to read this again tomorrow.

    and the next day.

    I am so, so happy for you.

    Sara Sophia

  44. You take the words right out of my mouth. My experience was exactly the same. I’ve only seen my husband cry when our children were born and the same feeling of being so overcome with happiness only happened with my second child, not so much with the first. And the guilty, yep I felt that same guilt. I love that we have the exact same experience because that means that there are certainly many others who have had the same experience, and for that I am thankful, and because of that the guilt diminishes ten-fold. I wish we talked about these things more. I’m sure glad you do. Keep it coming.

  45. I think I just fell in love with her, too. Congratulations!!

  46. Your love can be felt all the way up in Alaska. Keep shining!(we need a little more warmed up here)

  47. my girls were robbed of me too for the first year of their lives. I truly pray that when the time comes (if it does) that i have another, that I will be bale to breathe them in the way a mother is “supposed” to.

  48. You know that high pitched voice, scrunchy nose thing people do when they’re looking at babies? Totally did it over that last picture. So sweet.

  49. Ive been reading your blog since you did fashion shows of Moosh’s closet and have grown up with you. Back then i was dating my current husband with no thoughts of kids and now i am married, house hunting and dealing with infertility myself. Reading this post makes me so happy for our future because even though it may take a while, there is a reason, and it will be worth it.

    Your blog is one of my favorites and i am truly SO happy for you and your family. Your girls are just gorgeous and you are so honest (and gorgeous too!). I may not comment often but i had to let you know how much i love your family and reading through your journey. Congrats once again!! oxo